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Saturday, April 30, 2005
oh and my targus earring dropped out while i was sleeping and it "rolled" into my ear.whahaha..i felt as if something was stuck there.then i thought it might be hair.(i cleaned it before i slept) tired to get it out then i realised my earring was gone!so i sat up and tilted my head one side and out rolled my earring.phew.
~4:42 PM
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went 2 catch Guess who wif jh on thurs.haha.damn funny.bernie mac's eyes are soooo full of expression!LOL!!i think its gonna stop screening soon though cos its been some time.oh btw,ive gt this habit of catching shows others would have caught long time ago.and everytime the Madagascar trailer comes on,i'll nv fail to laugh.i mean its corny,goofy,whatever!ive seen that trailer at least 5 times and im still laughing.i really dont know why but im just so tickled by it lah.met up with xj and wj aft dinner.guys,please can you seriously be on time?be late again,again,try me,i'll be really pissed and would just decide to give the date a miss.had fun with them nonetheless.and please dont let me get those stuff again.even if i ask for it.it really makes me wanna puke.haha.the atmosphere was kinda weird with him around.dont know what's gg on exactly.couldn't sleep when i finally got to bed.
reconciled with my group member.so proud of myself and her.=) its like a great burden lifted.
went out with jh ytd.haa.she's my partner cum shopping buddy.went to heeren initially.but then nothing really interested me there.oh wanted to buy this roxy slippers cos the slipper i usually wear to sentosa is obiang(according to some.lol).saw quite a limited variety at the outlet at heeren.so we decided to go towards paragon.and again,being the obiang me,how many of you guys know there is a quiksilver-roxy shop at paragon?all of you??omgosh.told you i was obiang.didnt even step foot to that part of paragon before.LOL.haha.spent alot there.cant believe i was so quick to decide.gosh,really gotta save up man.spend money like no one's business.hais.but was happy with what i bought.haha.met up with serene aft that.she's so amused by what we say though it doesnt seem as funny.lol.she's got quite a huge bout of laughing gas.very relaxing to just sit down and chat.=)
went to amk to meet xj and wj.seems lik xj wasnt in a reallly good mood,partly cos wj was pissing her off i think.but if i were you,i would be appreciative that he actually made an effort to ick his gf up from work.=) but wj was seriously irritating the hell outta of me yesterday.omgosh.feel lik slapping him!wahaha!!was pretty tired lah.oh bumped into millie.she's so damn funny i tell ya and i finally know how aunty she is!whaha!!couldnt sleep again when i finally got to bed.i really dont know why.but i could actually doze off while sitting on my bed stoning.
sharon girl,i hope everything is going on fine.i msged you but you didnt reply!is everything ok?please give me a ring again k!im glad if i can help you in any way i can.i'll just listen if you want me to!cheer up!there are many other things for us to embrace and look forward to! =)
my nose is irritating me.ive been having colds for the past few weeks.i mean on-off kind.i really dont know what's wrong with it!im at the same time worried but at the same time doing nothing about it.gosh,what's the problem with me?!hope everything will be fine.
msn kinda holds no purpose for me.i dont even feel lik being online.i mean there's no one for me to talk to or rather no one who bothers.not trying to gain sympathy.i used to sign in to msn immediately after i connect but no longer.somethings that once was of such great interest or importance doesnt matter so much to me anymore.same logic applies to humans.i mean look.some pple whom you really wish to keep in contact with dont even want to keep in touch with you.and you tend to think,"was it something i did?"but you cant think of anything.i dont know.i really dont.
there are so many "i dont know-s".life is so uncertain.the answer is just awaiting us somewhere.we gotta move towards it and find out for ourselves perhaps?i dont know.
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thot of e day: there are many tears in the heart that never reach the eye *cries
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ive bin sneezing ever since this aft..im so afraid e nxt thing i sneeze out wud b blood.it did happen once in e middle of e night n i didnt dare trouble any1 so i was bz trying 2 stop e blood n washing it down e sink.hopefully it'll go away soon.it sux.it reali does tho im so prone 2 having colds.
saw sum1 tt reali looked lik him ytd.being e paranoid me,i was so kan cheong n i phoned angel.my hrt skipped a beat when i saw "him" wif another girl.holding hands!!anywae,i did sumthing reali dumb nt worth mentioning here.n in e end it wasnt him.(i tink.was pretty certain dere n den but duno wat caused me 2 doubt again).nw,again,is God(sry it cant b in caps) trying 2 tell me sumthing?tt perhaps 1 day wl cum whrby i'll b faced wif such a situation and hw i shud react?wl this b hw i'll b gg 2 react?i broke out in cold sweat n kept repeating "omgosh" under my breath(ok,my command of eng is bad) .i tink he reali is trying 2 tell me sumthing.reali.n im kinda disappointed wif e way i reacted.i mean,i cant get over it.wats e prob wif me.sum1 pls kill me.kill tt paranoid me.
went bac 2 company 2dae.u noe seriously,i wudnt consider working at tt company(ok,lik dey even 1na employ me in e 1st plc).e way things r being carried out-lik shit.n often,miscommunication occurs.vr vr often.sick of it.im so paranoid(ok,wats new) abt us nt completing our MP.i mean jus look at e way things r gg!!hw nt 2 b paranoid?n me being e grp leader.oh gosh,disastrous.toking bt grp leader.2dae i was in a pretty bad mood cos of my cold.it was reali uncomfy.den we were discussing when 2 cum bac again cos evrytime we were bac dere,things arent ready 4 us.
Chin:when 1na cum back again?so hw leader?
me:(paranoid,obnoxious,rudely snapped at her) dont call me tt. *silence*
felt kinda bad.but being e usual me.*sighs.when im in a foul mood i dont care hw worst ur mood is den mine.i dont care bt anything.i noe tt's reali unreasonable.but sumtimes,i reali cant control my emotions.reali.n tt sux.totally sux.
gtg.my comp's here.*grins* n my cold is getting e better of me.
~10:15 PM
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had an enjoyable day w ave ytd.went ard buying stuff lik dey were free.1st time she's so "on".lol.i love her man!hehs.n she's jus super entertaining.ok,i guess it works both way.but she can reali make me go mad,leave me stamping on my feet and pulling off a bunch of hair.but i like tt.yea,i like tt.
its so confusing.2dae he told us officially it wud b our last day here.n he asked us wat else do we nid 2 complete.we 3 had blank looks on our faces.hello?we're waiting 4 u 2 tell us wat we can do.so so confusing.so he told us if we had 2 cum bac n do our stuff we gotta inform him n he wud arrange again.again,so so confusing.argh,so so confusing!anywae.wl tk 1 step at a time.hopefully evrything wl run smoothly.n again,so so confusing.
`` happy bday wenjie! ``
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~2:14 PM
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Joey:"uncle pls turn left..uncle pls drop me ahead,etc"
Junhui:"uncle pls turn rite n drop me rite ahead."(sumthing lidat)
Cab driver:"oh turn right isit?ok sure,no prob.btw is aunty nt uncle."(........)
Junhui:(taken aback n 2 shocked) "(softly)oops sry aunty"
hahha..played monopoly during lunch n chin was e richest.(both in reality n in e game).reached gardens at bt 320.den started singing till 7.woo..reali shiok sia..sing till ur throat sore.e price is pretty reasonable as well.n nt tt kinda sleazy looking ktv w those tico peks.lol.den we went 2 eat!!yums~ anywae..we had a gr8 time feasting but sumthing reali embarrassing happened!i was eating my wing..n den i was reali tugging hard at it but was tinking abt sumthing at e same time..dere were a grp of guys who were standing by n waiting 4 e table beside us 2 b cleared..*chew chew tug tug* n e wing flew off,kinda bounced off one of e guys jeans n dropped on e floor!!i was lik omgosh.wth?den i apologized n all of us started laughing.my face was flushed.n jh was lik..wth happened?den 1 of e guy told me..its ok!no prob..dun wry!but being e usual *oh i luv 2 laff at nth at all* me..i contd being so embarrassed.ooo,it tickles!e guy:dun wry..its over,dun tink bt it.u guys local? me:yea we r!
i quickly finished my bit n scampered away.trying 2 b unnoticed.
*m so tired rite nw.wanted 2 go out aft tt but my dark eye rings totally disgusted me.so decided 2 head hm.tink i wl b slping soon.yawns.bro's playng ard w his new lumix.so i can use e comp.so nice ah he.hehs.
*thot of e day:sumtimes if u open ur hrt n b more 4giving,u wl b happier tt way.humans err.tt's normal.u do,i do.dun look bac at all e unhappy things tt happened or e hurt sum1 had once inflicted upon u.y dun tink bac of e gd things he/she had done?
*im pretty happy w my life nw.cos dere's nt many things tt reali bother me.jus tk e day as it comes.y bother bt those who arent worthy of u at all?
*Wrongs are often forgiven, but contempt never is. Our pride remembers it forever.
~10:37 PM
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im reali tired..reached hm at 1+ ytd..phew had a real fun time ktv-ing.but sumhw felt kinda pissed?i mean its nt lik i dun understand.but she jus started crying 1/2way thru.we were enjoying ourselves so much.hais.i mean..i reali duno wat 2 sae!ive oredi said all i cud..reali.n its up 2 u 2 make e decision 4 urself.no1 can help u but urself.we can only stand by ur side n giv u support (tho nt 2 evrything u 1na do..cos its jus wrong alrite!) dun understand y u mus torture urself lik this lehs..ok i shant compare but lk at me,im fine lik tis!sumtimes e bes alternative might nt b e way u 1 it 2 b.but u jus gotta accept it!n he has made it so obvious.if u dun bac off,he's so gonna hate u.seriously n u guys wouldnt even b frens.wat 4 make matters worst?isnt e way it is gd enuff?u gotta move on w ur life!!b strong n stand up on ur own 2 feet!!oni u can help urself!anywae..den i became e clown n started entertaining em..k,wats new.haha.but aft tt..her mood reali spoilt my mood n i jus started ejecting all e songs ive chosen till it gt 2 e song she wanted.urgh.i noe im being so insensitive rite?but wat can u do when e person jus dun seem 2 wake up her ideas n ignores wateva ppl sae?n its bin lik this 4 so long!!she's lik so deep in a..i dunO!sumhw things became beta aft i started gg mad.haha.but it was reali great man!wee!oh,had a sumptous dinner at chompchomp b4 tt.hee.darn full.bumped into a couple of ppl dere.hee!n joey started criticizing e fd infront of e hawker!infront of e hawker!!omgosh.n she heard it!joey kept pointing at e fd n all e nt-so-nice comments came out.*faints*i jus told her,u wanted it urself.jus kip e comments 2 urself,mind u,dey can can hear wat ure saying!*faints again*reali regretted brging her dere.or rather ordering fr tt stall.felt so so embarrassed!*faints* but joey,ur specs r reali nice!i 1na make oso!whahah.tk a cab hm n dere were so many cockroaches ard.yucks!den jh commented "wow,its e 1st time i c grace running so fast!!!!"..ehs,thx leh.whahah.anywae..nearly concussed e moment i reached hm.but when i finally gt 2 bed,i cudnt slp.great!!when i woke,was so so so so tired.
im gonna catch sum slp.dead tired.wanted 2 go ktving again but..2 bad..dere's no1 available.it jus goes 2 show hw few frens ive gt.loner me. =(
(!!!) oh n did u realise i didnt mention * ? hiaks.
~3:50 PM
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im really really tired(my eyes are puffy) and bored.maybe i shall watch some vcds and go to sleep early tonight.i was thinking what have i been doing for the past few saturdays.because it seems there's no where for me to go or do.haha.but actually more of an economic constrain.its really expensive to go out on weekends.although that's like the time when everyone hangs out.i shall stick to going out on weekdays.im afraid of crowds.*shy* i love mum,sorry for all the rebellious crimes i have committed.and i really wanna let you know that i really care about you though im always having the heck care attitude.im listening,mum!
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was thinking about something just now.how weird it is when i think back of certain things that happen and they really turn me off.yet sometimes its just hard to imagine the bad things that had happened.weird isnt it?but for now..i dont feel as down as i was in e previous entry.i feel better.i dont think so much about that any more.well,note:FOR NOW.lol..im out!
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**i was pretty pissed last nite.she called me at ard 9+.talked 4 awhile but i reali cudnt concentrate cos i was watching tvee.hehs.so i told her i'll get bac 2 her at 11.she seems 2 b pretty fine but till nw,she doesnt trust n noe if wat she did was wrong/rite.girl,u gotta define it urself.even if sum1 tells u wat 2 do,u mite nt 1 it 2 b tt way.u mite hv ur own tinking.go ahead n do wat u 1,if u regret,at least u noe u've tried! =) anywae..called her at 12 eventually.was pretty bz lah.hehs.den she answered n didnt sae much.it was vr noisy over at my hse so i told her 2 speak louder.anywae,she kept quiet most of e time.figured tt she was crying.she kinda ignored me all e way.occasionally she let out squeaks n sobs.but she wasnt answering any of my qns or nt even responding.i was holding on lik a fool.i told her i'll hang up,giv her a ring tmr or msg her.leave her alone 4 nw.told her 2 sae "yes/no".no response.n i duno hw 2 sae!was jus reali pissed.n i jus cudnt bear 2 hang up on her!i hesitated 4 quite sum time.i told myself she was jus gg thru a rough patch so told myself she jus nids more understanding.n den i told her i reali gotta hang up.in view tt i gotta work tmr.n was reali tired den.den i hung!but b4 tt.stil no response.gosh.duno wat she's tinking.guess shes jus feeling vr vr miserable.hais.anywae..she called me jus nw during lunch but i kinda missed it.wl drop her a msg ltr.yawns~!i woke up at a shocking 0911 2day.i jumped out of my bed n i was lik shucks!im suppose 2 report work at 930 rite.damn.was jus 2 tired le lah.reached dere at 1045.n dey were having a meeting at our department.shit.caught red handed.urgh,wats wrong wif me?!n nw im feeling so slpy.kaes,gotta work le lah.haha!wee~!
~2:05 PM
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anywae!caught ms congeniality ytd.whaha.i noe im abit slow.haha.who cares.*u lik e pirates u 1na kiss em* i was irritating angel all nite long changing e words.making her so pissed.gosh,i jus lurveeeee 2 c her tt way!bought two cheeze sausages in.ya.sausages.yums.LOL!!we were laughing our heads off doing those silly stuff and entertaining ourselves.and she kinda turned les u noe.i tink shes gt sum serious prob up dere.uh-huh.she kept stroking my thighs ytd n giving me those pervertic expression.i was like..wth is wrong wif u?!i figured it was becos of me irritating her w e sausages 1st. whahaha..damn funny lah she.anywae..evrytime im out wif her,im lik reali happi cos we amuse each udder.vr much in fact.u we dun care if udders r looking at us wif weird expression or wateva.i do wat i 1.isit a crime 2 laugh out loud?!n b extremely happy?huh?haha.anywae.yea,had a gr8 day.i luv 2 go out wif my sis 2.cos she is another vr entertaining person who dun seem 2 care abt image.haha.but i luv 2 go out wif my udder frens 2.its jus tt dey tend 2 watch wat dey do or say alot in public.sumhw uneasy.jus let down ur hair n do wat u 1 mans! =)
*sobs.ive gt a bad cold.if u've gt a cold,stay far away fr me.cos when ur cold's gone,mine wud still b w me 4 a couple of days.
chin isnt here on time again.its 1126,btw we start work at 930 latest.yea!so punctual hor!i dun tink she'll b cuming 2dae.n dammit whenever she doesnt cum,i'll b e one questioned by xr.hey hey,do i look lik ive gt e "im sim chin ngee" look?hello?lik i noe wat she's up 2 when she doesnt even switch on her fone,dun reply my sms or even refuse 2 ans her rm fone.isit my fault again tt she isnt here?AGAIN?he said he'll hv 2 lk 4 e leader n hold her responsible 4 her nt turning up.so tt's wat e leader is entitled 2 eh?ar,i see..fine.n dere was once when she came at 1145 n we were supposed 2 head 2 sch at 12.n she said "hey do i hv 2 cum up?its lik so weird cum out den hv 2 leave.u guys cud hv left without me 1st."den wat r u doing at e lift lobby?i suppose nt waiting 4 us?excuse me mdm,did i sae u r 2 cum at 1145 n leave 4 sch?it was supposed 2 b a norm working day jus tt we wud leave 1/2 way.n sumhw she didnt tink she was at fault!n i,losing my cool easily,gave her e cold sholder.n she had this vr attitude face.ok,so its my fault tt u came late n didnt report 4 work?isit?hello?anywae,aft tt incident,i cudnt b bothered unless xr tells me tt im responsible again.ive done my part but wateva i sae,u dun bother.so?wats e pt?u've gone 2 far.u made use of our frenship 2 kindly n conveniently excuse urself.nw im telling u,look,u can b a vr gd fren but definitely nt a gd work partner.period.evry1 tinks we're prejudiced against u or sumthing.but those who hv actuali worked wif u b4 wl understand hw we're feeling n wat we mean.i wont bother trying 2 stand up 4 myself when all dey'll tink is.."come on,deres nth wrong w her doing tt" dammit.u guys wl nv understand.nv.n sumhw this ting has jeopardised our frenship n no matter hw much i 1 it 2 b wat it used 2 b,it wudnt.i cant accept all these pretending dey nv did exist.perhaps u wud lik it this way huh,anywae,i dun mean much 2 u n who cares?i dun care 4 nw,ive told myself.sumhw ive trained myself 2 harden my hrt aft so many incidents.n yes,our frenship wl nv.note:nv b e same again.
was reading xy's blog.n she mentioned abt e bk "men r fr mars,women r fr venus".ive heard abt this bk b4.but thx xy,e contents tt u quote make me reali 1na lay my hands on tt bk nw.wahaha.sumhw i reali 1na b ur fren n b dere 4 u..but im nt even sure if u 1 me 2 do tt.perhaps u'll find me more of a hindrance than anything.but i reali wud luv 2 spend time w u.but im nt gd at comforting ppl,perhaps jus lending a listening ear wud b gd enuff?anywae,jie,tc of urself n if u nid anything,i'll try my bes 2 help.promise.
sumhw evry1 has gt their fair share of insecurity.like 4 me,ive owaes bin e one gg ard msging evry1 n all.till a pt of time,i thot 2 myself.who wl bother without me bothering?hw many of u do noe wats happening in my life?but anywae..these qns wl find their own ans n b4 i noe it,these thots wud hv disappeared into thin air.tt's me.tt's jus soo me.
n whenevr i feel so stressed,i'll end up dreaming tt i had a smoke in my dreams.n tt was wat i dreamt of last nite.
~11:54 AM
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**watched the pacifier 2dae..Muahaha..i tell u its a mus catch.its darn funny.gosh,was laughing all e way thruout the movie!!haha..reali vr funny..actuali e reali funny movies i still can remember...50 first dates,hot chicks..ya..those..all watched wif e same person.omgosh,wat m i toking abt?haha..tink im gg mad.but anywae,reali worth watching lah.hehs.gonna catch ms congi. tmr..heard it aint as nice as this..but anywae,i 1na mit sum1 so badly!so im gonna watch it..cant afford 2 miss it..whahaa!!
**so many breakups nwadays..total of 5 le?hais..is this e jinxed month?haha..so superstitious..but seriously..all happened at abt e same time..pls!i dun 1 anymore 2 cum!!i feel reali bad inside..sad..unez..all of em r lik so depressed..all gave their all in e r/s but ended up..actuali sumtimes..its nt all abt us..it tks 2 hands 2 clap rite?sumtimes when its time 2 let go..let go..u'll b beta off tt way..memories n all wl stay..jus let em..1 day sum1 wl cum along who wl touch u as much as he did..or even more..n appreciate u as u r..willing 2 compromise,sacrifice,n jus accept u 4 who u r..strong enuff 2 stand up 2 his own beliefs n love..2 all my dear frens..pls b strong..stand up on ur own feet.u can do it n no1 can help u but urself!i noe its gonna b a hard time..but time wl heal all e wounds tt once seemed 2 b permanent n wl nv b healed.believe n luv urself.dun ever do things 2 harm urself.dere r many udders who do care.dun let urself down!i noe all these may fall on deaf ears or shud i sae..seem lik useless speech..so b it.one day u wl cum 2 realise urself..
**ok,we're lik gg bac 2 company every day without anything 2 do dere.absolutely nth.its lik so dumb!so y do dey ever 1 us dere 4??hais..i duno..dumb dumb.
**hehs,i luv my family.i pray 4 mum who has recently nt bin feeling well..her back n all.
**so slpy.yawns.recently heard bt so many encounters.sumtimes i dun even dare 2 go 2 e loo.i wud lik make it reali snappy n look ard e cubicle while in dere.but i believe my god is dere 2 protect me.he'll kip me fr harm owaes!every min of my life.
**grace is confused 2.she's in e situation herself n yet she has gotta help udders along.i dun mind..im nt complaining..i luv my frens n i reali wud lik 2 help em whenever i can.but sumtimes..aft so long..i still cant totally..n i feel lik such a loser within..sum1 who is so lost n wish 2 find her way thru..
~10:39 PM
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i duno if e gap btw us is gg 2 narrow down.seriously,i tink we wud b beta off if we didnt land up at e same plc.i tink...i tink..dere r so many i tink-s!i wish time wud brg us bac 2 those times when we were happily miting up even on wkends tho we c each udder everyday in sch.those r e times i reali yearn 4.i wish our frenship wud b still gg on fine had it nt bin 4 ***.i doubt u wl tink tt way cos mebbe this frenship means nth much 2 u.do u noe wat i feel 2wards u nw?evry single lil ting tt u do wrong pisses me off n make me reali snap at u.n e worst thing is u nv reali tink ure in e wrong.wat's blinding u?ur ego?i duno.i reali dun.but i dun hv e courage 2 tok abt e probs tt reali do exist.coward?perhaps.n e way u tok is sumwat offensive.ive told my fren bt u but she seems 2 b standing up 4 u.sumhw i feel..i duno wats tt feeling.its jus tt dey feel ure e 1 who's in e rite kinda ting.i wun bother trying 2 speak up 4 myself.it wudnt work wl it?dey dun understand tt u r no doubt a vr vr gd fren but definitely nt sum1 gd 2 work wif.y m i complaining when deres nth i wish 2 do?hais.as much i tell myself tt its impossible 2 work wif u again,but wl i ever b able 2 do tt?i dun tink i wl abandon my fren.we shall c..
i tink dere's a serious prob w me.i owaes seem 2 tink n ponder..actuali hw many frens do i hv?hw many do reali bother?y do dey seem so distant?*end.
~3:18 PM
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Mum hasnt bin feeling gd of late.she went 2 sum accupuncture thingie..n u noe mums owaes gt this "if 1 day i shud die..i duno wats gonna becum of u guys..u all cant survive..im getting old..so many problems..i jus hope 2 die a painless n quick death..i dun 1na b a burden 2 u guys.." n i feel vr bad..but all i can sae is mum..we can help out wif e chores n all,dun wry,u'll b fine in no time.etc..im nv gd at expressing wat i exactly feel..often mistaken tt i dun care..but i reali do n do u noe hw i feel??hurt n sadness beyond words..
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*pretty true?hahah~
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*2dae* m reali shagged now.woo~ n in fact feel lik puking..God knows y.isit an indication tt i shud put sum food into my stomach?but i've gt no appetite at all.jus feel lik slping.anywae,we tk e bumper boat(is tt wat u call it?) dere.was reali fun.hee.den rented bikes n started on our adventure.gosh,i finally noe hw bad my stamina is.reali reali bad.n dey had 2 wait 4 me while i caught my breath aft gg up slopes.n e slopes werent tt steep mind u.e mosquitoes dere r definitely well fed wif kind souls lik us ard.soon dey started applying ointment n all.ting wud owaes turn n ask "grace,r u fine?can go on?if cannot mus sae k?"..i'm lik reali touched 2 hv frens lik em..dey didnt complain or anything tho sumhw i was depriving em of their hunger 2 venture further into tt island.dey made me feel comfortable n all.but i felt reali guilty believe it or nt.n i pushed myself pretty hard cos sumhw i didnt 1na disappoint every1..but realised tt e feeling is reali so hard 2 bear.so occasionally,sum1 wud acc me while e udder 2 went 2 check out wat's up ahead.i tell ya-i reali envy their stamina but i dun complain e lack of it.i shud b thkful wif wat i hv but i cant help but tink..if oni i can b lik em.but anywae,dey tk reali gd care of me.i reali treasure such frens.who owaes put me b4 emselves,understand hw i feel n do wat dey can 2 help me.i love em!but sumhw i felt reali kinda bad.seriously.had an enriching day w em.=) n dey showed me hw gr8 frens can b.(nt dey didnt prove emselves enuff in e past) i've met ppl who told me "isit tt bad?come on,jus a few more steps.blah blah.n sum ppl who hv said im lazy.damn.y dun u b me 4 a day n tell me hw u'd feel if sum1 told u tt.n dere's nth i can do cos i'm jus plain sick of telling ppl wat i'm feeling n wat i'm gg thru.even if i did,wud u even bother 2 understand?cos i've tried n still e same hurtful comments cum out.those r oni acquaintances.definitely nt in my list of frens.i love my frens.cos dey r so understanding n all.hee!lucky girl.k,things r lik pretty strange btw mum n me.sumhw feel this strain on our r/s.hais.wat 2 do?isit wrong 2 b lik out?hey,its lik hols common' mum.she feels i nid 2 b hm more.cos she dun c me ard often.sry,but i wl b gd once i go back 2 work.LOL.omgosh,lik sum small kid.k la..go nap 1st.miting angel n kiat ltr.im 1 lucky girl cos ive gt wat i've gt. =D
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oh and my targus earring dropped out while i was sleeping and it "rolled" into my ear.whahaha..i felt as if something was stuck there.then i thought it might be hair.(i cleaned it before i slept) tired to get it out then i realised my earring was gone!so i sat up and tilted my head one side and out rolled my earring.phew.
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went 2 catch Guess who wif jh on thurs.haha.damn funny.bernie mac's eyes are soooo full of expression!LOL!!i think its gonna stop screening soon though cos its been some time.oh btw,ive gt this habit of catching shows others would have caught long time ago.and everytime the Madagascar trailer comes on,i'll nv fail to laugh.i mean its corny,goofy,whatever!ive seen that trailer at least 5 times and im still laughing.i really dont know why but im just so tickled by it lah.met up with xj and wj aft dinner.guys,please can you seriously be on time?be late again,again,try me,i'll be really pissed and would just decide to give the date a miss.had fun with them nonetheless.and please dont let me get those stuff again.even if i ask for it.it really makes me wanna puke.haha.the atmosphere was kinda weird with him around.dont know what's gg on exactly.couldn't sleep when i finally got to bed.
reconciled with my group member.so proud of myself and her.=) its like a great burden lifted.
went out with jh ytd.haa.she's my partner cum shopping buddy.went to heeren initially.but then nothing really interested me there.oh wanted to buy this roxy slippers cos the slipper i usually wear to sentosa is obiang(according to some.lol).saw quite a limited variety at the outlet at heeren.so we decided to go towards paragon.and again,being the obiang me,how many of you guys know there is a quiksilver-roxy shop at paragon?all of you??omgosh.told you i was obiang.didnt even step foot to that part of paragon before.LOL.haha.spent alot there.cant believe i was so quick to decide.gosh,really gotta save up man.spend money like no one's business.hais.but was happy with what i bought.haha.met up with serene aft that.she's so amused by what we say though it doesnt seem as funny.lol.she's got quite a huge bout of laughing gas.very relaxing to just sit down and chat.=)
went to amk to meet xj and wj.seems lik xj wasnt in a reallly good mood,partly cos wj was pissing her off i think.but if i were you,i would be appreciative that he actually made an effort to ick his gf up from work.=) but wj was seriously irritating the hell outta of me yesterday.omgosh.feel lik slapping him!wahaha!!was pretty tired lah.oh bumped into millie.she's so damn funny i tell ya and i finally know how aunty she is!whaha!!couldnt sleep again when i finally got to bed.i really dont know why.but i could actually doze off while sitting on my bed stoning.
sharon girl,i hope everything is going on fine.i msged you but you didnt reply!is everything ok?please give me a ring again k!im glad if i can help you in any way i can.i'll just listen if you want me to!cheer up!there are many other things for us to embrace and look forward to! =)
my nose is irritating me.ive been having colds for the past few weeks.i mean on-off kind.i really dont know what's wrong with it!im at the same time worried but at the same time doing nothing about it.gosh,what's the problem with me?!hope everything will be fine.
msn kinda holds no purpose for me.i dont even feel lik being online.i mean there's no one for me to talk to or rather no one who bothers.not trying to gain sympathy.i used to sign in to msn immediately after i connect but no longer.somethings that once was of such great interest or importance doesnt matter so much to me anymore.same logic applies to humans.i mean look.some pple whom you really wish to keep in contact with dont even want to keep in touch with you.and you tend to think,"was it something i did?"but you cant think of anything.i dont know.i really dont.
there are so many "i dont know-s".life is so uncertain.the answer is just awaiting us somewhere.we gotta move towards it and find out for ourselves perhaps?i dont know.
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Thursday, April 28, 2005
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005
thot of e day: there are many tears in the heart that never reach the eye *cries
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
ive bin sneezing ever since this aft..im so afraid e nxt thing i sneeze out wud b blood.it did happen once in e middle of e night n i didnt dare trouble any1 so i was bz trying 2 stop e blood n washing it down e sink.hopefully it'll go away soon.it sux.it reali does tho im so prone 2 having colds.
saw sum1 tt reali looked lik him ytd.being e paranoid me,i was so kan cheong n i phoned angel.my hrt skipped a beat when i saw "him" wif another girl.holding hands!!anywae,i did sumthing reali dumb nt worth mentioning here.n in e end it wasnt him.(i tink.was pretty certain dere n den but duno wat caused me 2 doubt again).nw,again,is God(sry it cant b in caps) trying 2 tell me sumthing?tt perhaps 1 day wl cum whrby i'll b faced wif such a situation and hw i shud react?wl this b hw i'll b gg 2 react?i broke out in cold sweat n kept repeating "omgosh" under my breath(ok,my command of eng is bad) .i tink he reali is trying 2 tell me sumthing.reali.n im kinda disappointed wif e way i reacted.i mean,i cant get over it.wats e prob wif me.sum1 pls kill me.kill tt paranoid me.
went bac 2 company 2dae.u noe seriously,i wudnt consider working at tt company(ok,lik dey even 1na employ me in e 1st plc).e way things r being carried out-lik shit.n often,miscommunication occurs.vr vr often.sick of it.im so paranoid(ok,wats new) abt us nt completing our MP.i mean jus look at e way things r gg!!hw nt 2 b paranoid?n me being e grp leader.oh gosh,disastrous.toking bt grp leader.2dae i was in a pretty bad mood cos of my cold.it was reali uncomfy.den we were discussing when 2 cum bac again cos evrytime we were bac dere,things arent ready 4 us.
Chin:when 1na cum back again?so hw leader?
me:(paranoid,obnoxious,rudely snapped at her) dont call me tt. *silence*
felt kinda bad.but being e usual me.*sighs.when im in a foul mood i dont care hw worst ur mood is den mine.i dont care bt anything.i noe tt's reali unreasonable.but sumtimes,i reali cant control my emotions.reali.n tt sux.totally sux.
gtg.my comp's here.*grins* n my cold is getting e better of me.
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Monday, April 25, 2005
had an enjoyable day w ave ytd.went ard buying stuff lik dey were free.1st time she's so "on".lol.i love her man!hehs.n she's jus super entertaining.ok,i guess it works both way.but she can reali make me go mad,leave me stamping on my feet and pulling off a bunch of hair.but i like tt.yea,i like tt.
its so confusing.2dae he told us officially it wud b our last day here.n he asked us wat else do we nid 2 complete.we 3 had blank looks on our faces.hello?we're waiting 4 u 2 tell us wat we can do.so so confusing.so he told us if we had 2 cum bac n do our stuff we gotta inform him n he wud arrange again.again,so so confusing.argh,so so confusing!anywae.wl tk 1 step at a time.hopefully evrything wl run smoothly.n again,so so confusing.
`` happy bday wenjie! ``
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Saturday, April 23, 2005
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Friday, April 22, 2005
Joey:"uncle pls turn left..uncle pls drop me ahead,etc"
Junhui:"uncle pls turn rite n drop me rite ahead."(sumthing lidat)
Cab driver:"oh turn right isit?ok sure,no prob.btw is aunty nt uncle."(........)
Junhui:(taken aback n 2 shocked) "(softly)oops sry aunty"
hahha..played monopoly during lunch n chin was e richest.(both in reality n in e game).reached gardens at bt 320.den started singing till 7.woo..reali shiok sia..sing till ur throat sore.e price is pretty reasonable as well.n nt tt kinda sleazy looking ktv w those tico peks.lol.den we went 2 eat!!yums~ anywae..we had a gr8 time feasting but sumthing reali embarrassing happened!i was eating my wing..n den i was reali tugging hard at it but was tinking abt sumthing at e same time..dere were a grp of guys who were standing by n waiting 4 e table beside us 2 b cleared..*chew chew tug tug* n e wing flew off,kinda bounced off one of e guys jeans n dropped on e floor!!i was lik omgosh.wth?den i apologized n all of us started laughing.my face was flushed.n jh was lik..wth happened?den 1 of e guy told me..its ok!no prob..dun wry!but being e usual *oh i luv 2 laff at nth at all* me..i contd being so embarrassed.ooo,it tickles!e guy:dun wry..its over,dun tink bt it.u guys local? me:yea we r!
i quickly finished my bit n scampered away.trying 2 b unnoticed.
*m so tired rite nw.wanted 2 go out aft tt but my dark eye rings totally disgusted me.so decided 2 head hm.tink i wl b slping soon.yawns.bro's playng ard w his new lumix.so i can use e comp.so nice ah he.hehs.
*thot of e day:sumtimes if u open ur hrt n b more 4giving,u wl b happier tt way.humans err.tt's normal.u do,i do.dun look bac at all e unhappy things tt happened or e hurt sum1 had once inflicted upon u.y dun tink bac of e gd things he/she had done?
*im pretty happy w my life nw.cos dere's nt many things tt reali bother me.jus tk e day as it comes.y bother bt those who arent worthy of u at all?
*Wrongs are often forgiven, but contempt never is. Our pride remembers it forever.
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Thursday, April 21, 2005
im reali tired..reached hm at 1+ ytd..phew had a real fun time ktv-ing.but sumhw felt kinda pissed?i mean its nt lik i dun understand.but she jus started crying 1/2way thru.we were enjoying ourselves so much.hais.i mean..i reali duno wat 2 sae!ive oredi said all i cud..reali.n its up 2 u 2 make e decision 4 urself.no1 can help u but urself.we can only stand by ur side n giv u support (tho nt 2 evrything u 1na do..cos its jus wrong alrite!) dun understand y u mus torture urself lik this lehs..ok i shant compare but lk at me,im fine lik tis!sumtimes e bes alternative might nt b e way u 1 it 2 b.but u jus gotta accept it!n he has made it so obvious.if u dun bac off,he's so gonna hate u.seriously n u guys wouldnt even b frens.wat 4 make matters worst?isnt e way it is gd enuff?u gotta move on w ur life!!b strong n stand up on ur own 2 feet!!oni u can help urself!anywae..den i became e clown n started entertaining em..k,wats new.haha.but aft tt..her mood reali spoilt my mood n i jus started ejecting all e songs ive chosen till it gt 2 e song she wanted.urgh.i noe im being so insensitive rite?but wat can u do when e person jus dun seem 2 wake up her ideas n ignores wateva ppl sae?n its bin lik this 4 so long!!she's lik so deep in a..i dunO!sumhw things became beta aft i started gg mad.haha.but it was reali great man!wee!oh,had a sumptous dinner at chompchomp b4 tt.hee.darn full.bumped into a couple of ppl dere.hee!n joey started criticizing e fd infront of e hawker!infront of e hawker!!omgosh.n she heard it!joey kept pointing at e fd n all e nt-so-nice comments came out.*faints*i jus told her,u wanted it urself.jus kip e comments 2 urself,mind u,dey can can hear wat ure saying!*faints again*reali regretted brging her dere.or rather ordering fr tt stall.felt so so embarrassed!*faints* but joey,ur specs r reali nice!i 1na make oso!whahah.tk a cab hm n dere were so many cockroaches ard.yucks!den jh commented "wow,its e 1st time i c grace running so fast!!!!"..ehs,thx leh.whahah.anywae..nearly concussed e moment i reached hm.but when i finally gt 2 bed,i cudnt slp.great!!when i woke,was so so so so tired.
im gonna catch sum slp.dead tired.wanted 2 go ktving again but..2 bad..dere's no1 available.it jus goes 2 show hw few frens ive gt.loner me. =(
(!!!) oh n did u realise i didnt mention * ? hiaks.
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005
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Saturday, April 16, 2005
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im really really tired(my eyes are puffy) and bored.maybe i shall watch some vcds and go to sleep early tonight.i was thinking what have i been doing for the past few saturdays.because it seems there's no where for me to go or do.haha.but actually more of an economic constrain.its really expensive to go out on weekends.although that's like the time when everyone hangs out.i shall stick to going out on weekdays.im afraid of crowds.*shy* i love mum,sorry for all the rebellious crimes i have committed.and i really wanna let you know that i really care about you though im always having the heck care attitude.im listening,mum!
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was thinking about something just now.how weird it is when i think back of certain things that happen and they really turn me off.yet sometimes its just hard to imagine the bad things that had happened.weird isnt it?but for now..i dont feel as down as i was in e previous entry.i feel better.i dont think so much about that any more.well,note:FOR NOW.lol..im out!
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Friday, April 15, 2005
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**i was pretty pissed last nite.she called me at ard 9+.talked 4 awhile but i reali cudnt concentrate cos i was watching tvee.hehs.so i told her i'll get bac 2 her at 11.she seems 2 b pretty fine but till nw,she doesnt trust n noe if wat she did was wrong/rite.girl,u gotta define it urself.even if sum1 tells u wat 2 do,u mite nt 1 it 2 b tt way.u mite hv ur own tinking.go ahead n do wat u 1,if u regret,at least u noe u've tried! =) anywae..called her at 12 eventually.was pretty bz lah.hehs.den she answered n didnt sae much.it was vr noisy over at my hse so i told her 2 speak louder.anywae,she kept quiet most of e time.figured tt she was crying.she kinda ignored me all e way.occasionally she let out squeaks n sobs.but she wasnt answering any of my qns or nt even responding.i was holding on lik a fool.i told her i'll hang up,giv her a ring tmr or msg her.leave her alone 4 nw.told her 2 sae "yes/no".no response.n i duno hw 2 sae!was jus reali pissed.n i jus cudnt bear 2 hang up on her!i hesitated 4 quite sum time.i told myself she was jus gg thru a rough patch so told myself she jus nids more understanding.n den i told her i reali gotta hang up.in view tt i gotta work tmr.n was reali tired den.den i hung!but b4 tt.stil no response.gosh.duno wat she's tinking.guess shes jus feeling vr vr miserable.hais.anywae..she called me jus nw during lunch but i kinda missed it.wl drop her a msg ltr.yawns~!i woke up at a shocking 0911 2day.i jumped out of my bed n i was lik shucks!im suppose 2 report work at 930 rite.damn.was jus 2 tired le lah.reached dere at 1045.n dey were having a meeting at our department.shit.caught red handed.urgh,wats wrong wif me?!n nw im feeling so slpy.kaes,gotta work le lah.haha!wee~!
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Thursday, April 14, 2005
anywae!caught ms congeniality ytd.whaha.i noe im abit slow.haha.who cares.*u lik e pirates u 1na kiss em* i was irritating angel all nite long changing e words.making her so pissed.gosh,i jus lurveeeee 2 c her tt way!bought two cheeze sausages in.ya.sausages.yums.LOL!!we were laughing our heads off doing those silly stuff and entertaining ourselves.and she kinda turned les u noe.i tink shes gt sum serious prob up dere.uh-huh.she kept stroking my thighs ytd n giving me those pervertic expression.i was like..wth is wrong wif u?!i figured it was becos of me irritating her w e sausages 1st. whahaha..damn funny lah she.anywae..evrytime im out wif her,im lik reali happi cos we amuse each udder.vr much in fact.u we dun care if udders r looking at us wif weird expression or wateva.i do wat i 1.isit a crime 2 laugh out loud?!n b extremely happy?huh?haha.anywae.yea,had a gr8 day.i luv 2 go out wif my sis 2.cos she is another vr entertaining person who dun seem 2 care abt image.haha.but i luv 2 go out wif my udder frens 2.its jus tt dey tend 2 watch wat dey do or say alot in public.sumhw uneasy.jus let down ur hair n do wat u 1 mans! =)
*sobs.ive gt a bad cold.if u've gt a cold,stay far away fr me.cos when ur cold's gone,mine wud still b w me 4 a couple of days.
chin isnt here on time again.its 1126,btw we start work at 930 latest.yea!so punctual hor!i dun tink she'll b cuming 2dae.n dammit whenever she doesnt cum,i'll b e one questioned by xr.hey hey,do i look lik ive gt e "im sim chin ngee" look?hello?lik i noe wat she's up 2 when she doesnt even switch on her fone,dun reply my sms or even refuse 2 ans her rm fone.isit my fault again tt she isnt here?AGAIN?he said he'll hv 2 lk 4 e leader n hold her responsible 4 her nt turning up.so tt's wat e leader is entitled 2 eh?ar,i see..fine.n dere was once when she came at 1145 n we were supposed 2 head 2 sch at 12.n she said "hey do i hv 2 cum up?its lik so weird cum out den hv 2 leave.u guys cud hv left without me 1st."den wat r u doing at e lift lobby?i suppose nt waiting 4 us?excuse me mdm,did i sae u r 2 cum at 1145 n leave 4 sch?it was supposed 2 b a norm working day jus tt we wud leave 1/2 way.n sumhw she didnt tink she was at fault!n i,losing my cool easily,gave her e cold sholder.n she had this vr attitude face.ok,so its my fault tt u came late n didnt report 4 work?isit?hello?anywae,aft tt incident,i cudnt b bothered unless xr tells me tt im responsible again.ive done my part but wateva i sae,u dun bother.so?wats e pt?u've gone 2 far.u made use of our frenship 2 kindly n conveniently excuse urself.nw im telling u,look,u can b a vr gd fren but definitely nt a gd work partner.period.evry1 tinks we're prejudiced against u or sumthing.but those who hv actuali worked wif u b4 wl understand hw we're feeling n wat we mean.i wont bother trying 2 stand up 4 myself when all dey'll tink is.."come on,deres nth wrong w her doing tt" dammit.u guys wl nv understand.nv.n sumhw this ting has jeopardised our frenship n no matter hw much i 1 it 2 b wat it used 2 b,it wudnt.i cant accept all these pretending dey nv did exist.perhaps u wud lik it this way huh,anywae,i dun mean much 2 u n who cares?i dun care 4 nw,ive told myself.sumhw ive trained myself 2 harden my hrt aft so many incidents.n yes,our frenship wl nv.note:nv b e same again.
was reading xy's blog.n she mentioned abt e bk "men r fr mars,women r fr venus".ive heard abt this bk b4.but thx xy,e contents tt u quote make me reali 1na lay my hands on tt bk nw.wahaha.sumhw i reali 1na b ur fren n b dere 4 u..but im nt even sure if u 1 me 2 do tt.perhaps u'll find me more of a hindrance than anything.but i reali wud luv 2 spend time w u.but im nt gd at comforting ppl,perhaps jus lending a listening ear wud b gd enuff?anywae,jie,tc of urself n if u nid anything,i'll try my bes 2 help.promise.
sumhw evry1 has gt their fair share of insecurity.like 4 me,ive owaes bin e one gg ard msging evry1 n all.till a pt of time,i thot 2 myself.who wl bother without me bothering?hw many of u do noe wats happening in my life?but anywae..these qns wl find their own ans n b4 i noe it,these thots wud hv disappeared into thin air.tt's me.tt's jus soo me.
n whenevr i feel so stressed,i'll end up dreaming tt i had a smoke in my dreams.n tt was wat i dreamt of last nite.
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
**watched the pacifier 2dae..Muahaha..i tell u its a mus catch.its darn funny.gosh,was laughing all e way thruout the movie!!haha..reali vr funny..actuali e reali funny movies i still can remember...50 first dates,hot chicks..ya..those..all watched wif e same person.omgosh,wat m i toking abt?haha..tink im gg mad.but anywae,reali worth watching lah.hehs.gonna catch ms congi. tmr..heard it aint as nice as this..but anywae,i 1na mit sum1 so badly!so im gonna watch it..cant afford 2 miss it..whahaa!!
**so many breakups nwadays..total of 5 le?hais..is this e jinxed month?haha..so superstitious..but seriously..all happened at abt e same time..pls!i dun 1 anymore 2 cum!!i feel reali bad inside..sad..unez..all of em r lik so depressed..all gave their all in e r/s but ended up..actuali sumtimes..its nt all abt us..it tks 2 hands 2 clap rite?sumtimes when its time 2 let go..let go..u'll b beta off tt way..memories n all wl stay..jus let em..1 day sum1 wl cum along who wl touch u as much as he did..or even more..n appreciate u as u r..willing 2 compromise,sacrifice,n jus accept u 4 who u r..strong enuff 2 stand up 2 his own beliefs n love..2 all my dear frens..pls b strong..stand up on ur own feet.u can do it n no1 can help u but urself!i noe its gonna b a hard time..but time wl heal all e wounds tt once seemed 2 b permanent n wl nv b healed.believe n luv urself.dun ever do things 2 harm urself.dere r many udders who do care.dun let urself down!i noe all these may fall on deaf ears or shud i sae..seem lik useless speech..so b it.one day u wl cum 2 realise urself..
**ok,we're lik gg bac 2 company every day without anything 2 do dere.absolutely nth.its lik so dumb!so y do dey ever 1 us dere 4??hais..i duno..dumb dumb.
**hehs,i luv my family.i pray 4 mum who has recently nt bin feeling well..her back n all.
**so slpy.yawns.recently heard bt so many encounters.sumtimes i dun even dare 2 go 2 e loo.i wud lik make it reali snappy n look ard e cubicle while in dere.but i believe my god is dere 2 protect me.he'll kip me fr harm owaes!every min of my life.
**grace is confused 2.she's in e situation herself n yet she has gotta help udders along.i dun mind..im nt complaining..i luv my frens n i reali wud lik 2 help em whenever i can.but sumtimes..aft so long..i still cant totally..n i feel lik such a loser within..sum1 who is so lost n wish 2 find her way thru..
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Sunday, April 10, 2005
i duno if e gap btw us is gg 2 narrow down.seriously,i tink we wud b beta off if we didnt land up at e same plc.i tink...i tink..dere r so many i tink-s!i wish time wud brg us bac 2 those times when we were happily miting up even on wkends tho we c each udder everyday in sch.those r e times i reali yearn 4.i wish our frenship wud b still gg on fine had it nt bin 4 ***.i doubt u wl tink tt way cos mebbe this frenship means nth much 2 u.do u noe wat i feel 2wards u nw?evry single lil ting tt u do wrong pisses me off n make me reali snap at u.n e worst thing is u nv reali tink ure in e wrong.wat's blinding u?ur ego?i duno.i reali dun.but i dun hv e courage 2 tok abt e probs tt reali do exist.coward?perhaps.n e way u tok is sumwat offensive.ive told my fren bt u but she seems 2 b standing up 4 u.sumhw i feel..i duno wats tt feeling.its jus tt dey feel ure e 1 who's in e rite kinda ting.i wun bother trying 2 speak up 4 myself.it wudnt work wl it?dey dun understand tt u r no doubt a vr vr gd fren but definitely nt sum1 gd 2 work wif.y m i complaining when deres nth i wish 2 do?hais.as much i tell myself tt its impossible 2 work wif u again,but wl i ever b able 2 do tt?i dun tink i wl abandon my fren.we shall c..
i tink dere's a serious prob w me.i owaes seem 2 tink n ponder..actuali hw many frens do i hv?hw many do reali bother?y do dey seem so distant?*end.
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Saturday, April 09, 2005
Mum hasnt bin feeling gd of late.she went 2 sum accupuncture thingie..n u noe mums owaes gt this "if 1 day i shud die..i duno wats gonna becum of u guys..u all cant survive..im getting old..so many problems..i jus hope 2 die a painless n quick death..i dun 1na b a burden 2 u guys.." n i feel vr bad..but all i can sae is mum..we can help out wif e chores n all,dun wry,u'll b fine in no time.etc..im nv gd at expressing wat i exactly feel..often mistaken tt i dun care..but i reali do n do u noe hw i feel??hurt n sadness beyond words..
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Friday, April 08, 2005
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Thursday, April 07, 2005
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005
| You Are 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained |
The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. |
Are You Right or Left Brained?
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| You Are 45% Normal (Somewhat Normal) |
| While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself |
How Normal Are You?
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| You Are 50% Extrovert, 50% Introvert |
You're a bit outgoing, a bit reserved Like most people, you enjoy being social But you also value the time you have alone You have struck a good balance! |
Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?
*pretty true?hahah~
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| You Are A Good Friend |
| You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"! |
What Kind of Friend Are You?
whahaha...reali mehs?dun tink so leh..Muahahha!
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005
| You Will Die at Age 82 |
Congratulations! You take good care of yourself. You're poised to live a long, healthy life. |
What Age Will You Die?
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| Your Love Style is Agape |
| You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love. |
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Monday, April 04, 2005
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Saturday, April 02, 2005
*2dae* m reali shagged now.woo~ n in fact feel lik puking..God knows y.isit an indication tt i shud put sum food into my stomach?but i've gt no appetite at all.jus feel lik slping.anywae,we tk e bumper boat(is tt wat u call it?) dere.was reali fun.hee.den rented bikes n started on our adventure.gosh,i finally noe hw bad my stamina is.reali reali bad.n dey had 2 wait 4 me while i caught my breath aft gg up slopes.n e slopes werent tt steep mind u.e mosquitoes dere r definitely well fed wif kind souls lik us ard.soon dey started applying ointment n all.ting wud owaes turn n ask "grace,r u fine?can go on?if cannot mus sae k?"..i'm lik reali touched 2 hv frens lik em..dey didnt complain or anything tho sumhw i was depriving em of their hunger 2 venture further into tt island.dey made me feel comfortable n all.but i felt reali guilty believe it or nt.n i pushed myself pretty hard cos sumhw i didnt 1na disappoint every1..but realised tt e feeling is reali so hard 2 bear.so occasionally,sum1 wud acc me while e udder 2 went 2 check out wat's up ahead.i tell ya-i reali envy their stamina but i dun complain e lack of it.i shud b thkful wif wat i hv but i cant help but tink..if oni i can b lik em.but anywae,dey tk reali gd care of me.i reali treasure such frens.who owaes put me b4 emselves,understand hw i feel n do wat dey can 2 help me.i love em!but sumhw i felt reali kinda bad.seriously.had an enriching day w em.=) n dey showed me hw gr8 frens can b.(nt dey didnt prove emselves enuff in e past) i've met ppl who told me "isit tt bad?come on,jus a few more steps.blah blah.n sum ppl who hv said im lazy.damn.y dun u b me 4 a day n tell me hw u'd feel if sum1 told u tt.n dere's nth i can do cos i'm jus plain sick of telling ppl wat i'm feeling n wat i'm gg thru.even if i did,wud u even bother 2 understand?cos i've tried n still e same hurtful comments cum out.those r oni acquaintances.definitely nt in my list of frens.i love my frens.cos dey r so understanding n all.hee!lucky girl.k,things r lik pretty strange btw mum n me.sumhw feel this strain on our r/s.hais.wat 2 do?isit wrong 2 b lik out?hey,its lik hols common' mum.she feels i nid 2 b hm more.cos she dun c me ard often.sry,but i wl b gd once i go back 2 work.LOL.omgosh,lik sum small kid.k la..go nap 1st.miting angel n kiat ltr.im 1 lucky girl cos ive gt wat i've gt. =D
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Who's z girl:
its me.21.in a shit ass company.love my life and those in it.
Loves:
Sugar, spice and everything nice
Wants:
To lose weight.To be really happy.To remember God in all times.
To be more appreciative.To be genuine.To laugh like no-one's business!
Z girl:
Im basically a very simple human being.Love to laugh,love to play,hate to work,hate to study.
Love those who love me.Be nice to me and I'll reciprocate.
Im happy and smiley most of e time but I do have my shitty days too.
I only show my true colours to those Im close with.Even if on a bad day,I dont know u well,Im still all smiles.
But if u're my friend..then Im no smiles.WAHAHA.
Give me hell but I'll forgive u.I trust too easily in people.
Im obsessed with sweet stuff.
Make me laugh and u'll find it hard to stop me.I've a horrible laughter.So what?I love it!
Im barely surviving in a world of hypocrisy.Welcome to the club!
Walk down with me on memory lane:
- Went for dental appointment earlier on today. Ever...
- All girls are stupid and all guys are cheap.Why is...
- Increment? Big deal.
- Sicklet.
- Unforgivable sinner.
- Don't call me baby.
- The joke that wasn't exactly a joke.
- Time to move on?
- He's the one.
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