A L O H A ! My life story.
Like me and stay on.Dislike me,there's always the cross at the top right hand corner. No obligations.
Create Your Own!
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Yippie! Everything is fine le. We've resolved matters peacefully. Glad everything is at least settled. Hopefully in the days to come, there would be no problem, cos we're really trying to be more understanding for both parties alike.
Report is good so far. Ted says its fine. But seriously, I don't think that highly of ourselves. I just hope to submit it-done correctly and presentable. That's all. Oh and Ted is just so humorous! Cant stand it. Cant help laughing at his jokes. He is very creative. Gosh, I just love the interpretation of his tattoo. It has a story behind it!
I passed my em3 quiz. I tell ya, its luck. Pure luck. Poor johnathan missed by one mark, but I'm sure he'll go far for his term test! Jiayou! That's what he always tell me.
Term tests-next week. Stressed ah! Haven't even started studying a shit.
Tomorrow's BCS lecture. How am I going to copy the notes which I missed out on? I think it's gonna be damn tough. Jiayou, I can do it! Courage girl!
Waaaaaa, stomach is damn damn pain. I think I ate way too much. And now it's feeling so bloated and stretched. I've become a glutton! Arrr! Kanna "suan" by so many people. Hais. But my appetite is really growing each day. Really really bad.
I love being at home, I really really do. =D
I need some entertainment! I wanna go out and have great fun!
Chahaha. Fit-fat ah puis. =D
Although I never tell my friends or loved ones how much they mean to me, in my heart, they are priceless. But why do I feel myself taken for granted or that no one gives a damn about me sometimes? I'm like everyone else, I need to be cherished.
~6:13 PM
* * *
While waiting there, I realised that life is just so fragile, you do not know what's going to happen at the very next moment in your life. I witnessed a family-probably a guy was involved in an accident and I should think he didn't survive that. An elderly woman suddenly broke into a very loud wail and started crying, oblivious to the surroundings. At such a moment like that, who would? Then every member in the family started crying. The kids were the most pitiful ones, they didn't know what was going on. They only clung onto someone for support. They were scared. They only know something bad has happened. I felt really miserable then. Very uneasy and just sad.
How would I react if I were one of them? Why do people take life for granted? Why do people want to end their lives when there are so many who yearn to live? Why aren't we brave enough to do what we really want to? How many people would even think about how fragile life is? All my thoughts raced back to all the deeds in my heart which were unsaid and undone. There are millions. Yet I still chose to take things as they are. -Dud-
I guess its just human to react the way we do. When something bad happens, it is only then that we learn to regret. But what's the point?
Anyway, my cousin was fit enough to go home. Thank God for that. Don't ever underestimate the power of prayer. Thank God the X rays showed positive results. Anything to do with the head is bad. We started clowning around with him after that.
The hospital is just the worst place to be in. It draws away every single happy element. Every single one.
When will I find the courage in me to stand up to my feelings?
~8:18 PM
* * *
Bcs lab sucks. Cos I don't understand a thing.
Bcs lectures always make me feel so lonely. But sometimes if I'm lucky enough, Pui Eh will entertain me. But rarely happens le. He's just so damn funny lah. Hopefully can really get to be better friends. But it seems a lil impossible. I mean-how to? Oh and he isn't that fat, really. I dont know how he acquired that nick. He's quite fit actually and has a bigger built.
She hasnt come for so long. We cant even contact her. I don't know what is going on. All I know is that things are really bad now at this stage. And I'm tired from thinking about it. Tired. Why don't people have a sense of responsibility? Shirking everything aside and doing just what you please. Even if something bad has happened, you should tell us about it. Instead of us asking and not even getting a reply. Ridiculous ain't it.
Finally went to meet him. Hopefully he can help us solve something. Cos we've done all we could.
Report is due next friday. Would we be able to submit a good report by then? I'll try my best! I'm sure my piggy would too, give her usual 101%. =D
Term tests coming up. Sucks. Haven't had time to study. Dont know what I'm occupied with.
My sister is feeling really lonely man. She started doodling on the wall. Hahaha. But somethings she drew are pretty nice.
I've gone mad! I went to pierce my nose! Hahaha. Great eh. But mum hasnt found out yet. Missed it. Haha. I think she'll probably go mad. But I just wanted to know how it felt like. Hmm. Quite ok. Not really that pain but quite a hassle actually.
Have been feasting on durians. Those are like -woo-, so damn delicious. *Slurps
Those guys are weird. Whatever.
I need lots of courage. Would someone be so kind as to grant me a little. Just a teeny weeny bit will do.
How is he? Is he fine. Or is he not. What would it be like for us 10 years down the road? Would things still remain the same? But definitely not that kind of feeling involved. Really.
~6:35 PM
* * *
I love my sister. Cos she's a strong girl. I know she can do it. I believe in her. And I love her for who she is. To those who cant appreciate her, they can jolly well fuck off. And just leave the poor girl alone. But what a time.
I like the way things are actually now. I reckon things are better this way. =D Working hard for the days to come. I can do it! Have faith. I am not alone!
Tired. Tired. Think I'll go get some sleep. I need energy and lotsa rest. =)))))
.....................I'm a terrible person.
~1:02 AM
* * *
Me And My cute small eyed sister! I like this photo. But she hates it. cos she claims she looks like sht here.
Fireworks. Taken last National Day. Have I ever mentioned before I simply adore fireworks? Altho its short lived, it goes up, *bomp* and *shoosh* comes down, its effect is simply breathtaking.
These are fireworks too. Pretty arent they? *doe-eyed look*
I find this pict pretty nice. Hahaha. Self proclaimed. Please dont puke!
That's me, my aunt and my sister. Talking about my aunt. I cant finish talking about her in 1 day. She's simply just one of the people who plays a very important role in my life. She's in NZ. Faraway...
This is nothing. Just the earlier part of us getting high.
We forced her to pose like this. Look at her hair! We tied it up for her too. I remember the times when she used to stay with us. We'd go mad and start laughing so loudly that we'll start hearing bangs on the wall coming from my parents' room! I love this aunt of mine ALOT! *btw, we look so "gong" in the photo =X
This photo was taken one year back.
My piggy. I styled her hair. Ain't she beautiful like this? *Chahaha
Without her in school, life will be hell!
Look at my tiny eyes. Ugly ugly.
Candid shot. Not bad lah. *Pukes into nearby bin*
Gluttons ! ! !
After haircut. Not a bad hair day! =)
Getting bored? Hang in there!
My religion. My firm belief.
Chio bu! Arrrr! Buay tahan ah! Seriously, she's a million times better looking than me. But I'm not jealous! Really! =D
Finally one last one. No regrets. Super duper classic photo. Priceless hor!
That's me on the left!!!! Cant believe I was so fat? Haha. Not an imposter. That IS me alright. Cute hor cute hor? Heehee! *Ya right, joke of many friends lah when i showed them and they just refused to believe it was me!
~10:16 PM
* * *
Gosh, quiz is coming up. Argh! I'm going bonkers!
Report's due in 2 weeks' time. Stress ah! Now, what am I going to do about it.
~6:42 PM
* * *
Watched Batman Begins yesterday with my dearest piggy. Kick ass show. I really loved it man. Was jus thinking about Catwoman, as in the movie, wasn't really fantastic. But Batman's really - WOO! Wickedly electrifying! And there were parts that were funny too. Hmm, simply enjoyed the movie. But dont know if others would think this way. Anyway.
Bought lotsa things yesterday. Felt extremely rich and started buying whatever I like. Actually wanted to buy Levi's but my waist kinda turned me off. OFF. So I was thinking maybe I should shed off some weight first before I decide again. Ya right, given my diet and eating habits. IMPOSSIBLE. But then again, IMPOSSIBLE is nothing! I bought a top and a three quarts. And a x:odus shoe. Hehs. Happy happy.
We acted like strangers. I really dont understand how things got so bad but at the same time, I dont see how things are going to get any better. Very sad case. I wonder how such good friends can turn out to be like this. But to put it bluntly and perhaps sounding abit heartless - I really dont bother about her business or life. Its her life, not mine. Why should I be so affected?
If she didnt tell so many lies, maybe we would still be very good friends. Maybe. But what's the point of saying? I dont think I can turn back and walk on that path again. As much as I want to be good friends with you again, I cant. There is this blockage there. By the way, its a different person I'm talking about here.
Perhaps I should reflect upon my own attitude and actions. Maybe afterall everything is my fault. But not! I'm just being myself and besides, my temper is really under control. I've learnt many valuable lessons. And to be more considerate to others' feelings. But there is a limit to my patience and kindness. You push me off the edge, I snap. Natural human reaction. But somehow, I've learnt to be more tolerant after last Saturday. =)
Sista opened my wounds. Ar! Why must she make such a comparison? But now I dont think of him anymore, anyway. So she can say as much and I wouldnt be affected. Yippie yay! I hope things will be better for her and him. Yes it would be.
Accompanied sista to PS. Rushed from school and then back to school. Haha. Cos I love her. She bought a pair of shoes from x:odus too! Haha. My recommendation. =) Chahahaha. But she seemed in a bad mood after buying the shoes. Weird girl. But after that she regained happiness again. Hahaha.
Tomorrow will be a better day. Yes it will be.
~7:53 PM
* * *
That's the one thing which i firmly believe in.
Time to move on with life and to address the things which needs more attention, focus and is more important.
I've given up. Nothing really bothers me now. It's just that sometimes I feel things could have been better. But anyway, let's leave it to fate to decide. I shan't force things to happen! I believe I shall be granted the things which God feel are the best for me.
Actually having more friends isn't a bad thing afterall.
Life's boring. Oh but i discovered a geeky thing. That is the school library is quite a nice place to be in! Whahaha. 8-)
Oh, conflicts conflicts! How i hate them! A world with strangers. But why do I care right? Over things that are so pointless. Yea. That's the way.
Oh this test is really accurate! Haha. Can try it out. Really really accurate.
http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx/ Friend took it and said it told all about her too. =D
Life haven't been going on fine. There's just too many things cramming into that pea brain of mine. Its exploding! Argh!
Life's good. Yet misery sinks into me when I think of how I see things could have been better.
~12:13 PM
* * *
I love to be with mum and sis! I love la mian! *Yums
I hate my temper. It sucks.
I hate reports. I hate mis-communications. I hate it when people dont know what chances are. I hate it when people test my patience. I hate it when people make use of my friendship. I hate to pretend that nothing has happened. I hate it when people push me off the edge. But I shan't hate any longer.
Why hate when you can be happier without hatred? Today someone told me something which really awakened me. When you have a stronger spirituality, you wouldn't bear grudges or think bad of anyone. We are often falling into temptations not from the devil but from the people around us to sin. [ True isnt it?People make us dislike them ] If we have a stronger spirituality, we wouldn't even fall into such temptations. There's a whole lot more he told me. But please dont think I'm some freak trying to pyscho you guys. But what he said really really made sense.
Ok, I'm getting sleepy. And I have dark eye circles. Sad aint it.
` ` When I hear stuff about you, I will think about you. But the feeling isn't there anymore. Dont worry. Isn't this the way you want things to be? It's happening, glad to tell you that. And I'm so so glad that I've freed myself. There's no way I'm gonna turn back when I've come so far. Please dont think of yourself all the time.Spare a thought for your loved ones.But I'm not in the position to say anything,anyway.` `
~2:19 AM
* * *
Don't wish to care about anything anymore. Especially when it comes to that. My patience and all have reached its max! Until I no longer feel angry, disappointed whatsoever. Unfeeling. What more to say when there's nothing left to be said? Just leave things as it is. I mean there's nothing to be resolved! Anyway, everything's gonna be over in a couple of weeks. Just put an end to our sorrows.
School's a bore.
The girl is sad. The girl feels so damn unpretty. The girl is so inferior. The girl feels hopeless. The girl cant do what her heart wants to do. The girl feels gutless. The girl feels that things could be better. But the girl cant do anything. Cos there is only so much the girl can do. The girl wish she could be bolder. The girl is sad.
The girl is me.
~12:34 AM
* * *
Hais. I feel so helpless man. =( Gosh, I hope things will turn out fine. Maybe I’m taking things too seriously or simply just thinking too much. The usual paranoid me. Hiaks.
Hahaha. Tomorrow's Thursday! Happy happy Thursday! Cos there's lecture..*** lecture! So looking forward to that. Hey, I do study also k. I do listen during lectures also k. Can multi-task what! In fact I’m gonna study when I get home. But that is after KTV-ing! =)))
~1:03 PM
* * *
It is too much of a coincidence. How can someone ever come along and take away every good impression or liking you have for another person and divert all the attention you have onto him? Am I being a flirt? Nah. I'm just keeping my options open. Nothing wrong with that. Im not some pretty face, I jolly well know that fact. Moreover, nothing will come out of this anyway. I think nothing more than making a friend. We hit it off pretty well. =D
I'm so demoralized by the maths quiz I took earlier on! Gosh I only knew like 4 questions out of the 20. *Sigh. But its true, what's the point of saying all these only after it has happened? So I shall work hard for em3! Never say die!
Entering new phase of life . . . . . . . . * =))))) *
~8:07 PM
* * *
Wed: Bumped into him early morning! So happy can. =D Wa lao sounds like some idiotic secondary school student. But I'm really going crazy over him man. Erks. Watched Monster In Law and had a haircut. Was kinda disappointed with the show, didn't turn out as nice as I thought it would be. My hair looks like crap now. Cant stand it! Wake up every morning thinking: “ I'm so having a bad hair day!”
Thurs: Went to Chomp Chomp after school with Angeline and Kiat. Had a feast but then dinner was still waiting for me at home. *Sobs! Nevertheless I enjoyed myself very much with them. The insulting couple! Should give them an award these days.
Fri: Accompanied sista to cut her hair. She's pretty satisfied with her hair. Good. Didn't do much for that day cos only had consultation with our supervisor besides that no lessons. We went to the library in the evening and I borrowed some books there. Geeky me! =)
Sat: Went out with Angeline and Kiat. So nice of them to allow me to tag along. LOL. Went to the Guan Yin Temple at Bugis. Was a fun experience and got countless questions to ask them. Then we went to Marina. The renovated place is really big but feel like there is nothing special about the place though. Went to catch Cursed. Alright la I would say. Then we went to Queensway and had a feast! Yums. Then we headed home. Was darn tired.
Sun: Sent Granny off. She's off to NZ for a couple of weeks. Was in a really bad mood and Mum didn’t really make it better. But I felt kinda bad la. :(
Watched a couple of horror show these days. The common trait is that the really scary part only occurs in dreams. Meaning, *screams* and then it is nothing but a dream. Ya.
Somethings just cant be explained. Like how you actually go crazy over a person without really knowing him.
It seems like fate is being very kind to me. I always meet him early in the morning. Without fail. =)))
~11:41 AM
* * *
~11:53 AM
* * *
Yippie! Everything is fine le. We've resolved matters peacefully. Glad everything is at least settled. Hopefully in the days to come, there would be no problem, cos we're really trying to be more understanding for both parties alike.
Report is good so far. Ted says its fine. But seriously, I don't think that highly of ourselves. I just hope to submit it-done correctly and presentable. That's all. Oh and Ted is just so humorous! Cant stand it. Cant help laughing at his jokes. He is very creative. Gosh, I just love the interpretation of his tattoo. It has a story behind it!
I passed my em3 quiz. I tell ya, its luck. Pure luck. Poor johnathan missed by one mark, but I'm sure he'll go far for his term test! Jiayou! That's what he always tell me.
Term tests-next week. Stressed ah! Haven't even started studying a shit.
Tomorrow's BCS lecture. How am I going to copy the notes which I missed out on? I think it's gonna be damn tough. Jiayou, I can do it! Courage girl!
Waaaaaa, stomach is damn damn pain. I think I ate way too much. And now it's feeling so bloated and stretched. I've become a glutton! Arrr! Kanna "suan" by so many people. Hais. But my appetite is really growing each day. Really really bad.
I love being at home, I really really do. =D
I need some entertainment! I wanna go out and have great fun!
Chahaha. Fit-fat ah puis. =D
Although I never tell my friends or loved ones how much they mean to me, in my heart, they are priceless. But why do I feel myself taken for granted or that no one gives a damn about me sometimes? I'm like everyone else, I need to be cherished.
* * *
Sunday, June 26, 2005
While waiting there, I realised that life is just so fragile, you do not know what's going to happen at the very next moment in your life. I witnessed a family-probably a guy was involved in an accident and I should think he didn't survive that. An elderly woman suddenly broke into a very loud wail and started crying, oblivious to the surroundings. At such a moment like that, who would? Then every member in the family started crying. The kids were the most pitiful ones, they didn't know what was going on. They only clung onto someone for support. They were scared. They only know something bad has happened. I felt really miserable then. Very uneasy and just sad.
How would I react if I were one of them? Why do people take life for granted? Why do people want to end their lives when there are so many who yearn to live? Why aren't we brave enough to do what we really want to? How many people would even think about how fragile life is? All my thoughts raced back to all the deeds in my heart which were unsaid and undone. There are millions. Yet I still chose to take things as they are. -Dud-
I guess its just human to react the way we do. When something bad happens, it is only then that we learn to regret. But what's the point?
Anyway, my cousin was fit enough to go home. Thank God for that. Don't ever underestimate the power of prayer. Thank God the X rays showed positive results. Anything to do with the head is bad. We started clowning around with him after that.
The hospital is just the worst place to be in. It draws away every single happy element. Every single one.
When will I find the courage in me to stand up to my feelings?
* * *
Friday, June 24, 2005
Bcs lab sucks. Cos I don't understand a thing.
Bcs lectures always make me feel so lonely. But sometimes if I'm lucky enough, Pui Eh will entertain me. But rarely happens le. He's just so damn funny lah. Hopefully can really get to be better friends. But it seems a lil impossible. I mean-how to? Oh and he isn't that fat, really. I dont know how he acquired that nick. He's quite fit actually and has a bigger built.
She hasnt come for so long. We cant even contact her. I don't know what is going on. All I know is that things are really bad now at this stage. And I'm tired from thinking about it. Tired. Why don't people have a sense of responsibility? Shirking everything aside and doing just what you please. Even if something bad has happened, you should tell us about it. Instead of us asking and not even getting a reply. Ridiculous ain't it.
Finally went to meet him. Hopefully he can help us solve something. Cos we've done all we could.
Report is due next friday. Would we be able to submit a good report by then? I'll try my best! I'm sure my piggy would too, give her usual 101%. =D
Term tests coming up. Sucks. Haven't had time to study. Dont know what I'm occupied with.
My sister is feeling really lonely man. She started doodling on the wall. Hahaha. But somethings she drew are pretty nice.
I've gone mad! I went to pierce my nose! Hahaha. Great eh. But mum hasnt found out yet. Missed it. Haha. I think she'll probably go mad. But I just wanted to know how it felt like. Hmm. Quite ok. Not really that pain but quite a hassle actually.
Have been feasting on durians. Those are like -woo-, so damn delicious. *Slurps
Those guys are weird. Whatever.
I need lots of courage. Would someone be so kind as to grant me a little. Just a teeny weeny bit will do.
How is he? Is he fine. Or is he not. What would it be like for us 10 years down the road? Would things still remain the same? But definitely not that kind of feeling involved. Really.
* * *
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
I love my sister. Cos she's a strong girl. I know she can do it. I believe in her. And I love her for who she is. To those who cant appreciate her, they can jolly well fuck off. And just leave the poor girl alone. But what a time.
I like the way things are actually now. I reckon things are better this way. =D Working hard for the days to come. I can do it! Have faith. I am not alone!
Tired. Tired. Think I'll go get some sleep. I need energy and lotsa rest. =)))))
.....................I'm a terrible person.
* * *
Friday, June 17, 2005
Me And My cute small eyed sister! I like this photo. But she hates it. cos she claims she looks like sht here.
Fireworks. Taken last National Day. Have I ever mentioned before I simply adore fireworks? Altho its short lived, it goes up, *bomp* and *shoosh* comes down, its effect is simply breathtaking.
These are fireworks too. Pretty arent they? *doe-eyed look*
I find this pict pretty nice. Hahaha. Self proclaimed. Please dont puke!
That's me, my aunt and my sister. Talking about my aunt. I cant finish talking about her in 1 day. She's simply just one of the people who plays a very important role in my life. She's in NZ. Faraway...
This is nothing. Just the earlier part of us getting high.
We forced her to pose like this. Look at her hair! We tied it up for her too. I remember the times when she used to stay with us. We'd go mad and start laughing so loudly that we'll start hearing bangs on the wall coming from my parents' room! I love this aunt of mine ALOT! *btw, we look so "gong" in the photo =X
This photo was taken one year back.
My piggy. I styled her hair. Ain't she beautiful like this? *Chahaha
Without her in school, life will be hell!
Look at my tiny eyes. Ugly ugly.
Candid shot. Not bad lah. *Pukes into nearby bin*
Gluttons ! ! !
After haircut. Not a bad hair day! =)
Getting bored? Hang in there!
My religion. My firm belief.
Chio bu! Arrrr! Buay tahan ah! Seriously, she's a million times better looking than me. But I'm not jealous! Really! =D
Finally one last one. No regrets. Super duper classic photo. Priceless hor!
That's me on the left!!!! Cant believe I was so fat? Haha. Not an imposter. That IS me alright. Cute hor cute hor? Heehee! *Ya right, joke of many friends lah when i showed them and they just refused to believe it was me!
* * *
Gosh, quiz is coming up. Argh! I'm going bonkers!
Report's due in 2 weeks' time. Stress ah! Now, what am I going to do about it.
Oh and that guy from my tutorial group is just so weird.
I have many friends. Many. Countless. But not a single genuine one. Or who are the genuine ones? For now, I dont know. Who doesn't need friends? My friends flock to their partners and when the game's over, they come back to me. They call me. I know they need me for something. When they get a new guy, they spend almost all their life with them and I'm shoved aside. The cycle repeats itself.
I've lost many friends. Those who make use of my friendship and kindness. They lie, do everything. Are they my friends? I don't think so.
How many friends have i got? Friends. Perhaps not even one. Or should I say not even one.
* * *
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Watched Batman Begins yesterday with my dearest piggy. Kick ass show. I really loved it man. Was jus thinking about Catwoman, as in the movie, wasn't really fantastic. But Batman's really - WOO! Wickedly electrifying! And there were parts that were funny too. Hmm, simply enjoyed the movie. But dont know if others would think this way. Anyway.
Bought lotsa things yesterday. Felt extremely rich and started buying whatever I like. Actually wanted to buy Levi's but my waist kinda turned me off. OFF. So I was thinking maybe I should shed off some weight first before I decide again. Ya right, given my diet and eating habits. IMPOSSIBLE. But then again, IMPOSSIBLE is nothing! I bought a top and a three quarts. And a x:odus shoe. Hehs. Happy happy.
We acted like strangers. I really dont understand how things got so bad but at the same time, I dont see how things are going to get any better. Very sad case. I wonder how such good friends can turn out to be like this. But to put it bluntly and perhaps sounding abit heartless - I really dont bother about her business or life. Its her life, not mine. Why should I be so affected?
If she didnt tell so many lies, maybe we would still be very good friends. Maybe. But what's the point of saying? I dont think I can turn back and walk on that path again. As much as I want to be good friends with you again, I cant. There is this blockage there. By the way, its a different person I'm talking about here.
Perhaps I should reflect upon my own attitude and actions. Maybe afterall everything is my fault. But not! I'm just being myself and besides, my temper is really under control. I've learnt many valuable lessons. And to be more considerate to others' feelings. But there is a limit to my patience and kindness. You push me off the edge, I snap. Natural human reaction. But somehow, I've learnt to be more tolerant after last Saturday. =)
Sista opened my wounds. Ar! Why must she make such a comparison? But now I dont think of him anymore, anyway. So she can say as much and I wouldnt be affected. Yippie yay! I hope things will be better for her and him. Yes it would be.
Accompanied sista to PS. Rushed from school and then back to school. Haha. Cos I love her. She bought a pair of shoes from x:odus too! Haha. My recommendation. =) Chahahaha. But she seemed in a bad mood after buying the shoes. Weird girl. But after that she regained happiness again. Hahaha.
Tomorrow will be a better day. Yes it will be.
* * *
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
That's the one thing which i firmly believe in.
Time to move on with life and to address the things which needs more attention, focus and is more important.
I've given up. Nothing really bothers me now. It's just that sometimes I feel things could have been better. But anyway, let's leave it to fate to decide. I shan't force things to happen! I believe I shall be granted the things which God feel are the best for me.
Actually having more friends isn't a bad thing afterall.
Life's boring. Oh but i discovered a geeky thing. That is the school library is quite a nice place to be in! Whahaha. 8-)
Oh, conflicts conflicts! How i hate them! A world with strangers. But why do I care right? Over things that are so pointless. Yea. That's the way.
Oh this test is really accurate! Haha. Can try it out. Really really accurate.
http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx/ Friend took it and said it told all about her too. =D
Life haven't been going on fine. There's just too many things cramming into that pea brain of mine. Its exploding! Argh!
Life's good. Yet misery sinks into me when I think of how I see things could have been better.
* * *
Sunday, June 12, 2005
I love to be with mum and sis! I love la mian! *Yums
I hate my temper. It sucks.
I hate reports. I hate mis-communications. I hate it when people dont know what chances are. I hate it when people test my patience. I hate it when people make use of my friendship. I hate to pretend that nothing has happened. I hate it when people push me off the edge. But I shan't hate any longer.
Why hate when you can be happier without hatred? Today someone told me something which really awakened me. When you have a stronger spirituality, you wouldn't bear grudges or think bad of anyone. We are often falling into temptations not from the devil but from the people around us to sin. [ True isnt it?People make us dislike them ] If we have a stronger spirituality, we wouldn't even fall into such temptations. There's a whole lot more he told me. But please dont think I'm some freak trying to pyscho you guys. But what he said really really made sense.
Ok, I'm getting sleepy. And I have dark eye circles. Sad aint it.
` ` When I hear stuff about you, I will think about you. But the feeling isn't there anymore. Dont worry. Isn't this the way you want things to be? It's happening, glad to tell you that. And I'm so so glad that I've freed myself. There's no way I'm gonna turn back when I've come so far. Please dont think of yourself all the time.Spare a thought for your loved ones.But I'm not in the position to say anything,anyway.` `
* * *
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Don't wish to care about anything anymore. Especially when it comes to that. My patience and all have reached its max! Until I no longer feel angry, disappointed whatsoever. Unfeeling. What more to say when there's nothing left to be said? Just leave things as it is. I mean there's nothing to be resolved! Anyway, everything's gonna be over in a couple of weeks. Just put an end to our sorrows.
School's a bore.
The girl is sad. The girl feels so damn unpretty. The girl is so inferior. The girl feels hopeless. The girl cant do what her heart wants to do. The girl feels gutless. The girl feels that things could be better. But the girl cant do anything. Cos there is only so much the girl can do. The girl wish she could be bolder. The girl is sad.
The girl is me.
* * *
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Hais. I feel so helpless man. =( Gosh, I hope things will turn out fine. Maybe I’m taking things too seriously or simply just thinking too much. The usual paranoid me. Hiaks.
Hahaha. Tomorrow's Thursday! Happy happy Thursday! Cos there's lecture..*** lecture! So looking forward to that. Hey, I do study also k. I do listen during lectures also k. Can multi-task what! In fact I’m gonna study when I get home. But that is after KTV-ing! =)))
* * *
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
It is too much of a coincidence. How can someone ever come along and take away every good impression or liking you have for another person and divert all the attention you have onto him? Am I being a flirt? Nah. I'm just keeping my options open. Nothing wrong with that. Im not some pretty face, I jolly well know that fact. Moreover, nothing will come out of this anyway. I think nothing more than making a friend. We hit it off pretty well. =D
I'm so demoralized by the maths quiz I took earlier on! Gosh I only knew like 4 questions out of the 20. *Sigh. But its true, what's the point of saying all these only after it has happened? So I shall work hard for em3! Never say die!
Entering new phase of life . . . . . . . . * =))))) *
* * *
Monday, June 06, 2005
Wed: Bumped into him early morning! So happy can. =D Wa lao sounds like some idiotic secondary school student. But I'm really going crazy over him man. Erks. Watched Monster In Law and had a haircut. Was kinda disappointed with the show, didn't turn out as nice as I thought it would be. My hair looks like crap now. Cant stand it! Wake up every morning thinking: “ I'm so having a bad hair day!”
Thurs: Went to Chomp Chomp after school with Angeline and Kiat. Had a feast but then dinner was still waiting for me at home. *Sobs! Nevertheless I enjoyed myself very much with them. The insulting couple! Should give them an award these days.
Fri: Accompanied sista to cut her hair. She's pretty satisfied with her hair. Good. Didn't do much for that day cos only had consultation with our supervisor besides that no lessons. We went to the library in the evening and I borrowed some books there. Geeky me! =)
Sat: Went out with Angeline and Kiat. So nice of them to allow me to tag along. LOL. Went to the Guan Yin Temple at Bugis. Was a fun experience and got countless questions to ask them. Then we went to Marina. The renovated place is really big but feel like there is nothing special about the place though. Went to catch Cursed. Alright la I would say. Then we went to Queensway and had a feast! Yums. Then we headed home. Was darn tired.
Sun: Sent Granny off. She's off to NZ for a couple of weeks. Was in a really bad mood and Mum didn’t really make it better. But I felt kinda bad la. :(
Watched a couple of horror show these days. The common trait is that the really scary part only occurs in dreams. Meaning, *screams* and then it is nothing but a dream. Ya.
Somethings just cant be explained. Like how you actually go crazy over a person without really knowing him.
It seems like fate is being very kind to me. I always meet him early in the morning. Without fail. =)))
* * *
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
* * *
Who's z girl:
its me.21.in a shit ass company.love my life and those in it.
Loves:
Sugar, spice and everything nice
Wants:
To lose weight.To be really happy.To remember God in all times.
To be more appreciative.To be genuine.To laugh like no-one's business!
Z girl:
Im basically a very simple human being.Love to laugh,love to play,hate to work,hate to study.
Love those who love me.Be nice to me and I'll reciprocate.
Im happy and smiley most of e time but I do have my shitty days too.
I only show my true colours to those Im close with.Even if on a bad day,I dont know u well,Im still all smiles.
But if u're my friend..then Im no smiles.WAHAHA.
Give me hell but I'll forgive u.I trust too easily in people.
Im obsessed with sweet stuff.
Make me laugh and u'll find it hard to stop me.I've a horrible laughter.So what?I love it!
Im barely surviving in a world of hypocrisy.Welcome to the club!
Walk down with me on memory lane:
- Went for dental appointment earlier on today. Ever...
- All girls are stupid and all guys are cheap.Why is...
- Increment? Big deal.
- Sicklet.
- Unforgivable sinner.
- Don't call me baby.
- The joke that wasn't exactly a joke.
- Time to move on?
- He's the one.
Trace Back:
- March 2005
- April 2005
- May 2005
- June 2005
- July 2005
- August 2005
- September 2005
- October 2005
- November 2005
- December 2005
- January 2006
- February 2006
- March 2006
- April 2006
- May 2006
- June 2006
- July 2006
- September 2006
- October 2006
- November 2006
- December 2006
- January 2007
- February 2007
- March 2007
- May 2007
- June 2007
- July 2007
Z Links
My Friendster Profile
Xueyu Jie
Bel
Rachel
Natalie
Elaine
Francis
Luke
Diana
Photohunt game
Speak to me