Rainbows in the sky

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Fri: Went to visit my sister. Kinda miss her alot, I'll definitely remember her more in my daily life. Received my results! Cleared all. So proud of myself! Bahahaha! Went to PS to walk around. PS is such a boring place. Then went over to Chinatown for dinner. After that, we chilled out at Tju's place. Its been a long time since I've been there!

Sat: Had a little gathering with a few of the girls. I never fail to be amused when I'm out with them. =) Then, had a super quick and heavy lunch before heading down to Novena for the service. Went for mass after that and then the farewell dinner. Finally, went to sharon's house for her house warming. Haven't met her for like ages! And it seems like she is now more perverted than me. -_-" Nonetheless, enjoyed myself there! Her house is nicely furnished but a little small though. Had such a hectic day, rushing from one place to another. When I reached home, I didn't feel that tired still. But I fell asleep the moment I hopped into bed.

Sun: Went for a haircut. I don't know what possessed me to cut my fringe like damn short. Now I look like a primary school BOY. LOL. Anyway, heck lah.

Mon: Went for my medical checkup. Everything going on quite smoothly. Quite. Teehee. Had dim sum with Mum and my dearest Godma. Fun fun. =D

I love my mum hell lot. =)

~10:26 AM

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Thursday, September 22, 2005

Had Mac's Big breakfast early tues morning with Jon. Passed him his gift ( which I learnt from himself later on to my horror I didn't remove the price tag! Darn paiseh. ) Haven't met him for so long, it seems good to be able to catch up. Then I went out with Nayi and Aunty Ju. I miss them soooo much! Had dinner with my parents later on at Seletar. Really miss that as well. I remember we always had that when we were younger as a family ( as in my family of six ) I kinda miss alot of things!

Shopped around town on Wed with sister and her friend, "Keleng". Then we had a feast with Nayi and Mum! Wow wee! Then I had a bad tummyache again! Wahahaha! I miss Nayi SO much! Had a fun day!

Went for a morning walk with Mum and Sister. Then we went to Sentosa and I knew it was raining from Sister's friend but I so wanted to go in hope that the rain might have stopped by then. It didn't. Probably my attitude was bad, or should I say it was bad so it kinda triggered sister off. I know its my fault so I shouldn't say anything. After quite sometime, everything became fine again. I totally love their company so much! Mum's such a joker. Really laugh till peng. She's so darn cute! =D

I'm so tired.

I wanna get rid of my mood swings but sometimes I just can't control. I just can't! But I must, then I won't hurt so many people, especially my dear ones.

~8:53 PM

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Sunday, September 18, 2005

NO!

I must tell myself to forget him! I'm having such a hard time..everything was going on fine, when suddenly he came into the picture again. I know he don't mean any harm. I wished that we would keep in touch and it did happen. I wanted that so much. Then what am I thinking about? I find it really difficult to completely erase all the feelings I once had away. Maybe all I need is even more time. I must tell myself that I won't go looking for him. And I won't. Sometimes I wonder will I ever get to the day whereby I no longer harbour any feelings for him? I know its totally impossible for us to be together again. I know that very well and I remind myself very often. It IS a fact. Why can't I just get over it like everyone else who has gone through this?

I feel so lost. *I'm glad he is fine and that he updated me about his life.*

~5:28 PM

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Friday, September 16, 2005

Went town yesterday. Had no idea what to buy but luckily got a guide beside me. Chahaha.

We landed ourselves in Heeren. But then, there was nothing that attracted me leh. But there's this really interesting lamp. You control the lamp with your hand movements. Way cool man! But the price, even better!!! Then we went over to paragon.

I tell ya the people at POA suck. They treat me like a fool lor. Please man! I've got brains ok! The design of the shirt obviously isn't like that! Then they kept telling me "It's like that one lah". __ LOOK here man. Don't assume I know nuts 'bt this kinda thing can. Wa lao. I was damn pissed lah. She insulted my intelligence. Then the person still kept insisting that I didn't believe her. I was so damn pissed. Shouldn't have bought $80 worth of stuff there! Fuggers. Then I told Hwee 'bt it. Then she also told me she had the same experience! The same person! Argh.

Then we went over to PS where there was another POA! But the people there suck as well. So damn unfriendly. Hello?! I'm the customer you know. Saw very nice tees but no size. Lousy lah! Wahahaha! Oh by that time, my head was really aching. And I felt nauseous. Felt really damn sick. Then took a train back and kent said my face looked pale. I kept having the urge to puke.
=( Anyway, I couldn't get to sleep when I went home. Even listening to music didn't help. Just when I was about to sleep, it was time to wake up already! Hai. But luckily, I'm fine now! =)

Ok. TTFN.

~11:56 AM

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Thursday, September 15, 2005

Went for a morning walk with my parents. They jogged while I walked. LOL. Eh, my stamina not good lah. Its good to be up and inhaling the fresh air in the morning! Bumped into my "idol". LOL. Then we went for breakfast. Yums.

Oh let me share with you an encounter. On tuesday night for dinner, I was feeling damn greedy. Gosh one of the deadly sins. Wahaha! So after dinner ( which I complained about having too little for my share ), I made myself a BIG cup of milo. Then I ate a piece of fruitcake. By then I was feeling pretty full already. Then! My mum cut me some guava. So I ate that as well. Phew. After like one hour or so, I experienced a super duper bad tummyache! I wanted to puke and my tummy was hurting so badly. Like it was gonna explode and the walls of my tummy was stretched so much! My sister advised me to take some wine which would make it better. So I crawled to the kitchen. My parents were so shocked. LOL. I went to sleep feeling so uneasy. Throughout the night, the tummyache didn't get better. By morning, I felt better but still a little uneasy. Moral of the story: Don't bite off more than you can chew.

I insanely finished watching a box set of VCDs. Then I rushed off for a movie. I was still at my house bus stop at 615 and the show was at 645 at PS! Believe it or not, I was already seated at 648. Way before the show started. Lucky me. Watched The Cave. Hmmm, I would say pretty thrilling la. Quite nice. My sister watched The Longest Yard and she said it was nice too. I had such a hectic day yesterday. LOL.

Happy Birthday to da muscle man! =)

Ok, I'm going out now. ( But not with the bday boy) TTFN! =D

~1:51 PM

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Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Gosh, I'm feeling so pissed and stressed. I don't know at who and for what.

I'm so stressed you know. I know its dumb to be stressed over not knowing what gift to get. Its utter stupidity. But I'm feeling like that now! My mood haven't been very good for the past few days or so.

I really don't know what's going through my mind. I can't seem to comprehend my own thoughts or what I feel. I'm like crap when I'm under stress. I guess there's no chance of us heading towards that direction anymore. Yet I can't convey the message to him. Must I put it in such a blunt and cruel way then he can get what I mean? Or is it just that my actions have simply gave him the wrong idea? Then its absurd. It really is. Cos I didn't do anything to make him feel that way. Argh, I feel like shit now.

Our supervisor said our MP grade wasn't as good as he expected it to be. All thanks to the judging. BAH. Sad la. But somehow I wasn't very affected by it. Just let it be lor. What can we do 'bt it anyway?

Don't try to forget if you can't. Some people will always stay in your memories. But memories will always be memories. Sometimes, they cling so tightly onto you that you are not able to look forward but rather look back to the past. When will the tears in my heart stop flowing? I'm very sure that day would be the day when I find that person who can make me feel special again. I'm missing that someone very much.

~2:13 PM

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Thursday, September 08, 2005

I'm suffering from fatigue!

I know last minute studying is real bad. But I can only study that way-cram everything in last minute! I studied the night before and stayed up till 4+ before sleeping and 2 hours later I was up at my study table again. Anyway, I found the paper ( not surprisingly) TOUGH! All answers compared, none matched. =( Perhaps things aren't as bad. Awww, so nice comforting myself. HWEE! I don't want you removed from poly! So I shall make sure you study.

HECK anyway! Exams are OVER! Yipee Yay! I've got so many things I wanna do now, I seriously don't know where to start. But I think I should studying for my em3 1st ( in case I really gotta take supp paper ) ! Sian.

Think its time for me to get some really good rest. I was supposed to have a nap this noon and my hp kept emitting sounds. When I'm awake and all, no one contacts me! When I'm having my beauty sleep, that's when everyone starts calling me and messaging me. Life's like that.

I had enough of nursing my cough so I exploded today. I ate seafood delights and drank cold drinks. Even had a yummylicious ice cream cone! Sinful sinful. Everything comes with a price, so I'm paying for mine now. I coughed and sneezed, then traces of blood were found. My nose is blocked with blood clots. I didn't expect it to start bleeding. This afternoon was still fine. OH, yah I forgot I ate sinful delights! I mean...seafood delights.

Tomorrow still gotta head to school. Poor Jon is so stressed over MCT. Ah, that tough period is over for me. I told him it wouldn't be that tough. I went in not knowing a programming shit but I got over it, so would he! He's so smart and hardworking some more. No problem la! Wish him all the best. =D

Ok, time for bed. TTFN.

~10:57 PM

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Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Blog Blog!!

My brother have been hogging the computer so much so I couldn't even blog! LOL

Have been mugging like hell for the past week cos I had two papers on the same day and one being em3, i had to work doubly hard. I have always been very weak in maths and that was a total struggle for me! Anyway, BCS still went on pretty fine but em3 was a huge disaster. I found it so fugging tough! =( I left b3 and c1 totally blank. The other questions, I have no confidence at all. But I really don't wanna repeat em3! *SOBS. Somehow I took it kinda easy! Surprisingly. Anyway, its over le lah. So there's nothing I can do about it but to pray that after modifying, I can still survive with a pass at least!

My aunt is back from NZ. We went for bfast with her yesterday. She's going to Indonesia today. Will be back in 10 days. I'm so looking forward to that day of her return again when we can do some really good catching up!

Bought many things when I was out yesterday including a battery operated tooth brush. THAT is how lazy I am. Such a torture to wake up in the morning and EXERT so much force. LOL. So I figured I would let someone do the job for me. =p

I've been slacking for 2 days! Paper tomorrow! OMGosh. I'm in holiday mood already! Looking forward to so many things but most importantly, a job! I MUST find a job this vacation cos my resources are running low low low!

TTFN. I'm off to study ( Yeah right. Slack abit first. Haa! )

Sometimes old folks are really difficult to handle cos they're just so stubborn! Then, you get ticked off for being kind. Sometimes it doesn't pay to be kind, does it?

~10:41 AM

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