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Saturday, July 30, 2005
There are just too many things piling up-undone. I seriously got no time to care about other stuff but to complete all the things that needs to be done.
Ah! Projects. Like I'm so dead. Presentation's on Wed. Omgosh, I'm just so freaking freaked out! Hoepfully he'll be nice to us. I need to focus on getting things done! FOCUS. FOCUS.
What my brother said totally made sense. He hit the nail on the spot. I mean everything he said totally tallied with what I was thinking. GOSH. But I guess I shouldn't be affected so much by it? Perhaps just take it as advice. Wouldn't it just cause me more confusion and friction to the current situation? I shall leave everything to God. =D
Oh sentosa trip cancelled. One word-SAD! *hais.
I think probably everything was bottled up for too long that I think there is nothing much left to explain or even talk about. If you really think you have done nothing wrong, so be it. You yourself jolly well know what you have done. Perhaps I can tell you one thing-friendship is always based upon trust, to be honest in that friendship, to just simply treat your friend as a genuine friend and not to ever speak bad about your friends to no matter who. As far as I am concerned, you are still my friend and I wish you all the best with your life ahead with your partner and friends alike. I have learnt from the past and put it into great use in the present.
~10:46 PM
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I've made an enemy! I can't believe I'm a little scared of him! Cos he has got a bunch of friends with him lah, though I personally feel his friends aren't very supportive of him being against us.
We were in maths lecture, so Jh and I were talking. Then suddenly we heard "Shhhh". I don't know if it was directed at us but it came from the row of guys sitting in front of us. So naturally, we just shut our mouths! Then guy 1 told guy 2 ( That's the fugger ) something. Then guy 2 turned behind and looked at me, at the same time saying "They better not do it ( in chinese.) I felt it was totally absurd. Come on, don't you ever talk in lecture? What did we do to deserve that?! Then I told Jh about it. Could see he had a major problem with us. Then she became so aggressive, she started rubbing and then flinging the erasings at him! I felt shocked she did that ( a little scared to be precise ) But then staring at the rubbings on his back and hair, I burst into compressed laughter. Omgosh. Damn funny! But of course we were the minority, so of course must keep it low. Hais, like criminals and outcasts like that. When lecture ended, he turned and looked at us. Damn, why did I feel scared when he is just nothing but a nerd!
Unfortunately, we bumped into him at the canteen. The world is so small when you want it to be big. We were seated down already. Then his friends signalled to him ( I think ) and when he walked past us, he mumbled something like " blah blah SIBEI blah blah..." and at the same time giving us the side glance. EH! Got guts then look at us and say lah!Don't think you got more people with you then can bully us hor. Think what, got long fingernails, take long wallet and keep touching your hair means you got power over us! WTF! It's totally ridiculous! What did we do?! And the second time he walked past, he mumbled something AGAIN. Subsequently, he stopped.
FUGGER! People help! We're being bullied man! I need BACKUP! We're gonna have to face them during lecture, 3 times a week! HELP! We're not gonna have peace in time to come. =( I'm so disturbed.
~1:03 PM
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Have been going church for past few days. Four more days to go. Sometimes, I feel I'm such a bad catholic. Yes, I go church but sometimes, my actions don't really reflect all that well. I just wanna be more christ like. I feel I can be a much better person. After listening to homilys ( something like reflection on the readings in the bible ) , I really understand and tell myself, yes, I want to change. And I really do until humans incur my wrath. If no one does anything to anger me, I might just be better. But anyway, its all part of life to err. I shan't put the blame on others but myself. I just hope that no matter how angry people make me, that I can just be forgiving and perhaps look at the better side of things. Hoepfully I will be able to control the fury side of me and be a better man. Lol.
Speaking 'bt that, I felt I did something really bad today. Somehow I feel GUILTY. But what have I done wrong to think that way? I just wanna draw a line between friends and work. But I'm sure if I don't do it like this, I would just be like Jh, bitter over that matter. Hai, regret when something is done and regret if I don't do it. Wth. There are just two people talking in my head.
The good:"Eh you very bad lah, do until like that. She's your friend leh. No matter how much you dislike the attitude she carries for projects and all, you shouldn't have handled it like that."
The bad:"Eh come on lah. She didn't want to ask if she could join you for project work. Blame who? If she really wanted to, she should ask. Then what? Go ask her to join you?? Are you mad? She's the one who should take initiative! Moreover, you should know her project attitude. You've done so many projects with her, been pissed with her countless times, you want to go through the same shit again? It was also said that you should join Xr and Jasmine had also messaged you beforehand. See!! She took initiative! And and!!!!!...................."
Gosh, how. Somehow I felt I should have told her that I had already found a group of my own. Perhaps can help her to find one. What's done is done. What more can I say?
On a happier note, I had a santa with me today! Hahaha. Things are on track. =) I should be more appreciative.
Mock presentation was pretty bad. Gosh, hopefully all will go well. Good luck to all who are presenting any time soon!
Yippie! Finally my long awaited trip to sentosa is coming! This Saturday! Yippie yay! So happy! I'm elated!
I'm sorry I cant treat you as good a friend I used to. Perhaps one day you might come to realise how many friends you have hurt, including me. Do you really not know what you have done?Is this all jus plain pretence? I only have one very good friend whom I share every single thing with-the friend who was there for me, talk about everything, get the fastest updates, just being herself, showed me how good it is to have a friend to completely trust in.(Besides my dearest sista) After all these years and incidents, the only regret I have is not having the courage to tell you straight what I feel about you. I told myself to give you a chance yet time and time again, you ruined every single one of them. Friends for 5 years? Now it has only become - acquaintances. Please don't ever say things that are not true, I will never know how to reply them.
~10:31 PM
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Hey Bel and Rae. Look! I've got a shop of my own k! WEE WEE. So don't fool around with me. Actually I was just walking in Tanglin Mall ( Yeah like why would I be there kinda thing ) then i saw it! Omgosh. That shop sells maternity wear. Haha! Specially tailored ones. LOL.
Don't know what's the purpose of this picture also. LOL. Four of us in that picture! Wow wee! Boo Hoo.
Argh. Feel damn tired nowadays. Everyday after school its nothing but me feeling tired.
I'm under control babae!
~10:52 PM
* * *
Got back my term tests. Oh well turned out to be similar to what I expected. Flunk one but managed to score pretty well for two, at least beyond my expectations. Yeah. Anyway, it's over. Time to buck up in all things I do!
I'm pretty happy the way things are going. Yeah, happy. Finally found a solution which is good for the both of us. Am happy. I guess I'm just a really rotten person. Why do people believe so strongly in me when sometimes I cannot find any reason not to put myself down? I'm glad that there are still alot of people who never once gave up on me, so I shan't give up on myself halfway else I'll disappoint them.
I'm really touched and glad. I feel I'm not worth all that. Really. But he makes me believe that I'm a different person from who I think myself to be. He doesn't make me feel but he makes me believe.
Well, I hope to gain confidence once again. =D Anyway, everything's cool!
Ok, back to doing my storyboard. Gotta present tomorrow! Sickening.
To have a good friend who cares for you more than for himself is simply a blessing. Hopefully things will continue to be good. If anything goes wrong, it gotta be me!!
~6:56 PM
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I really don't want to be like this. I've tried very very hard to overcome that but I simply cant. It is a daily struggle for me. No matter how hard I try to think on the positive side, the devil in me will still act up. As a result, causing hurt to those around me. Some people cant accept me for who I am yet there are many who stand by me, strong. I appreciate them and their tolerance. They don't give up on me. Although sometimes, I wish they would. They don't have to go through this shit with me. Really.
I don't wanna hurt anyone. Maybe I'm too used to living life alone. Maybe I don't want to have anyone there for me. And most importantly, I don't wanna inflict hurt on anyone, not to mention you. I'm confused. Just leave me alone. What am I to do??
~4:29 PM
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Went with Angel to Kaki Bukit. It really seemed that everyone was flocking there on that day. Bumped into so many people! Went to changi with Jon, Angel and Kiat. Had a filling meal of chicken! Whoo! Then we went to the viewing mall. Haven't been there for ages. Haha. It seemed like a sad place to be at. That kinda sad feeling. Like someone dear was leaving you. Hahahaha! Went for a stroll at the garden downstairs before heading home. Very peaceful place. I enjoyed myself alot. To be out with your buddy and dearest. Who wouldn't be more than happy? =)
Attended graduation ceremony yesterday. So glad to see all my friends obtaining the cert. From then, they would have nothing to do with TP! My turn my turn! Clapped so much till my hands were red! Hahaha. So happy to see all my friends gathered there. Had a little chat with Mike's mum. I'm really glad she's fine! I just hope one day I would see us talking to each other again.
Headed to town after that with them. Had fun.
Mum complained that I've been out too much. I havent been going home for dinner. I know but its my hols! I just wanna play hard and then work hard when the school term starts! But well, not exactly, I'm here doing my report. Sigh. So much for holidays eh.
Well at least I still got time to go out. Yeah will be catching a movie later! Such a coincidence? Angel and I wanted to watch the same show at the same location at the same time. I was still racking my brains over which movie I should watch. But she helped me make my decision. So actually it was a day out with my boyfriend but now it is with my bf, my buddy and her bf! Haha. Again! But I really do enjoy their company so I don't mind and since he don't mind also, we agreed. Happy outing! =D
Tired. Damn tired. Tomorrow shall be the day I'll be resting well! Meaning staying home for almost the whole day. Argh, I feel so old! I desperately need sleep cos my dark eye rings are coming out! Disastrous! Back to report!
I just don't wanna hurt others and get myself hurt as well. Why do negative thoughts pop into my mind sometimes? Is it really inevitable? Am I thinking about myself all the time and not taking others' into consideration? I don't want it to be like this!
~4:53 PM
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Haha. Pretty true. Oh gosh back to doing such quizzes again! I'm happy people, I am!
Went out yesterday to town with my sister. Had fun man! But boy, so damn "suay", was raining heavily. So we stayed put at Wisma. She bought herself a topshop top. I wanted to buy a FCUK tee! But then my sister kept telling me to drop that idea. Hai. I think I still might get it. Might. There are just so many things I want! CONTROL myself, look for ALTERNATives, and DELETE away those thoughts of wants! Yeahhhhhhh ! ! !
Decided to check out forum the shopping mall and tanglin when Mr Sun came out again. So ulu but anyway decided to check it out. Indeed pretty boring eh. Argh! Tempted to buy betula, birkenstock! I like the one rachel have. But I'll definitely not get that same design. Having something someone else have, that kinda feeling! So I think I shall look around first. Bought a couple of tops and spent abt 100 bucks. Had great fun! But I shall scrimp and save from today onwards. ( Yea right ) My sister's just sooooo orbit! I mean she does such corny things that make you laugh like mad. She's one great entertainer alright. I really do enjoy her company. Had duper great fun! I cant stop repeating myself!
Was so tired but I can never sleep until I have my daily dose. * Loves
Going to gardens' for a round of massive gorging and bitching! Yippie!
* Sensitive. Sweet. Understanding. Too many things. * Yes, I'm foolish, so? Just my DD. I'll cherish.
Don't be jealous! Chahahahaha! =))))
~4:02 PM
* * *
Sometimes I'm just scared. I guess I've no trust in myself. I will learn to trust myself more and definitely him.
People can bitch all they want. I dont care.
* Looking at life from a different perspective. * I will. I will. Cherish * Pray *
~10:35 PM
* * *
I'm in love baby ! ! !
Looks doesnt account for anything. It fades with time. Its the heart that counts. Don't many people think that way too?
~11:58 AM
* * *
But still, I'd choose to believe in him. Well, if all turns out bad, blame it on me. I made this decision.
I just love the silly look on his face. And the surprised look which tells me what I have done is worth it.
For now, I shall cherish the present and worry not about the future. Let tomorrow worry for itself. Am i being naive? So what if I am? I'm happy!
* Just my little muscle man * =D
P.S : Is this bod hot? Chahaha.
~10:56 PM
* * *
Does age matter that much? It used to matter alot to me. USED TO. Prefably I would like a guy who is my senior. Cos people say guys' thinking is not as matured as girls. Well, I beg to differ. Who cares about having a guy one year my junior? I don't. In fact I have gladly accepted and welcomed the fact. It depends on individual, really. Others can say whatever nasty things they want about me. I really don't bother. They can look at me in whatever way they want. This is my life-I lead it the way I want it to be.
Anyway, its too early to judge or say anything. All I know is that I want to cherish the present moments. And be smiling one day when I think back. To give myself a chance, not to care what others might say, I got to say I've become braver and learnt to stand up to my feelings. =)
Will you people be the nice ones to give me some form of encouragement?
* My little muscle man * Am happy. =D
~7:49 PM
* * *
Is he like this nice to all his friends? I dont know him well enough to say anything!
~10:28 AM
* * *
There are just too many things piling up-undone. I seriously got no time to care about other stuff but to complete all the things that needs to be done.
Ah! Projects. Like I'm so dead. Presentation's on Wed. Omgosh, I'm just so freaking freaked out! Hoepfully he'll be nice to us. I need to focus on getting things done! FOCUS. FOCUS.
What my brother said totally made sense. He hit the nail on the spot. I mean everything he said totally tallied with what I was thinking. GOSH. But I guess I shouldn't be affected so much by it? Perhaps just take it as advice. Wouldn't it just cause me more confusion and friction to the current situation? I shall leave everything to God. =D
Oh sentosa trip cancelled. One word-SAD! *hais.
I think probably everything was bottled up for too long that I think there is nothing much left to explain or even talk about. If you really think you have done nothing wrong, so be it. You yourself jolly well know what you have done. Perhaps I can tell you one thing-friendship is always based upon trust, to be honest in that friendship, to just simply treat your friend as a genuine friend and not to ever speak bad about your friends to no matter who. As far as I am concerned, you are still my friend and I wish you all the best with your life ahead with your partner and friends alike. I have learnt from the past and put it into great use in the present.
* * *
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
I've made an enemy! I can't believe I'm a little scared of him! Cos he has got a bunch of friends with him lah, though I personally feel his friends aren't very supportive of him being against us.
We were in maths lecture, so Jh and I were talking. Then suddenly we heard "Shhhh". I don't know if it was directed at us but it came from the row of guys sitting in front of us. So naturally, we just shut our mouths! Then guy 1 told guy 2 ( That's the fugger ) something. Then guy 2 turned behind and looked at me, at the same time saying "They better not do it ( in chinese.) I felt it was totally absurd. Come on, don't you ever talk in lecture? What did we do to deserve that?! Then I told Jh about it. Could see he had a major problem with us. Then she became so aggressive, she started rubbing and then flinging the erasings at him! I felt shocked she did that ( a little scared to be precise ) But then staring at the rubbings on his back and hair, I burst into compressed laughter. Omgosh. Damn funny! But of course we were the minority, so of course must keep it low. Hais, like criminals and outcasts like that. When lecture ended, he turned and looked at us. Damn, why did I feel scared when he is just nothing but a nerd!
Unfortunately, we bumped into him at the canteen. The world is so small when you want it to be big. We were seated down already. Then his friends signalled to him ( I think ) and when he walked past us, he mumbled something like " blah blah SIBEI blah blah..." and at the same time giving us the side glance. EH! Got guts then look at us and say lah!Don't think you got more people with you then can bully us hor. Think what, got long fingernails, take long wallet and keep touching your hair means you got power over us! WTF! It's totally ridiculous! What did we do?! And the second time he walked past, he mumbled something AGAIN. Subsequently, he stopped.
FUGGER! People help! We're being bullied man! I need BACKUP! We're gonna have to face them during lecture, 3 times a week! HELP! We're not gonna have peace in time to come. =( I'm so disturbed.
* * *
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Have been going church for past few days. Four more days to go. Sometimes, I feel I'm such a bad catholic. Yes, I go church but sometimes, my actions don't really reflect all that well. I just wanna be more christ like. I feel I can be a much better person. After listening to homilys ( something like reflection on the readings in the bible ) , I really understand and tell myself, yes, I want to change. And I really do until humans incur my wrath. If no one does anything to anger me, I might just be better. But anyway, its all part of life to err. I shan't put the blame on others but myself. I just hope that no matter how angry people make me, that I can just be forgiving and perhaps look at the better side of things. Hoepfully I will be able to control the fury side of me and be a better man. Lol.
Speaking 'bt that, I felt I did something really bad today. Somehow I feel GUILTY. But what have I done wrong to think that way? I just wanna draw a line between friends and work. But I'm sure if I don't do it like this, I would just be like Jh, bitter over that matter. Hai, regret when something is done and regret if I don't do it. Wth. There are just two people talking in my head.
The good:"Eh you very bad lah, do until like that. She's your friend leh. No matter how much you dislike the attitude she carries for projects and all, you shouldn't have handled it like that."
The bad:"Eh come on lah. She didn't want to ask if she could join you for project work. Blame who? If she really wanted to, she should ask. Then what? Go ask her to join you?? Are you mad? She's the one who should take initiative! Moreover, you should know her project attitude. You've done so many projects with her, been pissed with her countless times, you want to go through the same shit again? It was also said that you should join Xr and Jasmine had also messaged you beforehand. See!! She took initiative! And and!!!!!...................."
Gosh, how. Somehow I felt I should have told her that I had already found a group of my own. Perhaps can help her to find one. What's done is done. What more can I say?
On a happier note, I had a santa with me today! Hahaha. Things are on track. =) I should be more appreciative.
Mock presentation was pretty bad. Gosh, hopefully all will go well. Good luck to all who are presenting any time soon!
Yippie! Finally my long awaited trip to sentosa is coming! This Saturday! Yippie yay! So happy! I'm elated!
I'm sorry I cant treat you as good a friend I used to. Perhaps one day you might come to realise how many friends you have hurt, including me. Do you really not know what you have done?Is this all jus plain pretence? I only have one very good friend whom I share every single thing with-the friend who was there for me, talk about everything, get the fastest updates, just being herself, showed me how good it is to have a friend to completely trust in.(Besides my dearest sista) After all these years and incidents, the only regret I have is not having the courage to tell you straight what I feel about you. I told myself to give you a chance yet time and time again, you ruined every single one of them. Friends for 5 years? Now it has only become - acquaintances. Please don't ever say things that are not true, I will never know how to reply them.
* * *
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Hey Bel and Rae. Look! I've got a shop of my own k! WEE WEE. So don't fool around with me. Actually I was just walking in Tanglin Mall ( Yeah like why would I be there kinda thing ) then i saw it! Omgosh. That shop sells maternity wear. Haha! Specially tailored ones. LOL.
Don't know what's the purpose of this picture also. LOL. Four of us in that picture! Wow wee! Boo Hoo.
Argh. Feel damn tired nowadays. Everyday after school its nothing but me feeling tired.
I'm under control babae!
* * *
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Got back my term tests. Oh well turned out to be similar to what I expected. Flunk one but managed to score pretty well for two, at least beyond my expectations. Yeah. Anyway, it's over. Time to buck up in all things I do!
I'm pretty happy the way things are going. Yeah, happy. Finally found a solution which is good for the both of us. Am happy. I guess I'm just a really rotten person. Why do people believe so strongly in me when sometimes I cannot find any reason not to put myself down? I'm glad that there are still alot of people who never once gave up on me, so I shan't give up on myself halfway else I'll disappoint them.
I'm really touched and glad. I feel I'm not worth all that. Really. But he makes me believe that I'm a different person from who I think myself to be. He doesn't make me feel but he makes me believe.
Well, I hope to gain confidence once again. =D Anyway, everything's cool!
Ok, back to doing my storyboard. Gotta present tomorrow! Sickening.
To have a good friend who cares for you more than for himself is simply a blessing. Hopefully things will continue to be good. If anything goes wrong, it gotta be me!!
* * *
Friday, July 15, 2005
I really don't want to be like this. I've tried very very hard to overcome that but I simply cant. It is a daily struggle for me. No matter how hard I try to think on the positive side, the devil in me will still act up. As a result, causing hurt to those around me. Some people cant accept me for who I am yet there are many who stand by me, strong. I appreciate them and their tolerance. They don't give up on me. Although sometimes, I wish they would. They don't have to go through this shit with me. Really.
I don't wanna hurt anyone. Maybe I'm too used to living life alone. Maybe I don't want to have anyone there for me. And most importantly, I don't wanna inflict hurt on anyone, not to mention you. I'm confused. Just leave me alone. What am I to do??
* * *
Thursday, July 14, 2005
Went with Angel to Kaki Bukit. It really seemed that everyone was flocking there on that day. Bumped into so many people! Went to changi with Jon, Angel and Kiat. Had a filling meal of chicken! Whoo! Then we went to the viewing mall. Haven't been there for ages. Haha. It seemed like a sad place to be at. That kinda sad feeling. Like someone dear was leaving you. Hahahaha! Went for a stroll at the garden downstairs before heading home. Very peaceful place. I enjoyed myself alot. To be out with your buddy and dearest. Who wouldn't be more than happy? =)
Attended graduation ceremony yesterday. So glad to see all my friends obtaining the cert. From then, they would have nothing to do with TP! My turn my turn! Clapped so much till my hands were red! Hahaha. So happy to see all my friends gathered there. Had a little chat with Mike's mum. I'm really glad she's fine! I just hope one day I would see us talking to each other again.
Headed to town after that with them. Had fun.
Mum complained that I've been out too much. I havent been going home for dinner. I know but its my hols! I just wanna play hard and then work hard when the school term starts! But well, not exactly, I'm here doing my report. Sigh. So much for holidays eh.
Well at least I still got time to go out. Yeah will be catching a movie later! Such a coincidence? Angel and I wanted to watch the same show at the same location at the same time. I was still racking my brains over which movie I should watch. But she helped me make my decision. So actually it was a day out with my boyfriend but now it is with my bf, my buddy and her bf! Haha. Again! But I really do enjoy their company so I don't mind and since he don't mind also, we agreed. Happy outing! =D
Tired. Damn tired. Tomorrow shall be the day I'll be resting well! Meaning staying home for almost the whole day. Argh, I feel so old! I desperately need sleep cos my dark eye rings are coming out! Disastrous! Back to report!
I just don't wanna hurt others and get myself hurt as well. Why do negative thoughts pop into my mind sometimes? Is it really inevitable? Am I thinking about myself all the time and not taking others' into consideration? I don't want it to be like this!
* * *
Monday, July 11, 2005
The Keys to Your Heart |
| You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. |
| In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. |
| You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
| You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
| Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. |
| Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it. |
| You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
| In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
Haha. Pretty true. Oh gosh back to doing such quizzes again! I'm happy people, I am!
Went out yesterday to town with my sister. Had fun man! But boy, so damn "suay", was raining heavily. So we stayed put at Wisma. She bought herself a topshop top. I wanted to buy a FCUK tee! But then my sister kept telling me to drop that idea. Hai. I think I still might get it. Might. There are just so many things I want! CONTROL myself, look for ALTERNATives, and DELETE away those thoughts of wants! Yeahhhhhhh ! ! !
Decided to check out forum the shopping mall and tanglin when Mr Sun came out again. So ulu but anyway decided to check it out. Indeed pretty boring eh. Argh! Tempted to buy betula, birkenstock! I like the one rachel have. But I'll definitely not get that same design. Having something someone else have, that kinda feeling! So I think I shall look around first. Bought a couple of tops and spent abt 100 bucks. Had great fun! But I shall scrimp and save from today onwards. ( Yea right ) My sister's just sooooo orbit! I mean she does such corny things that make you laugh like mad. She's one great entertainer alright. I really do enjoy her company. Had duper great fun! I cant stop repeating myself!
Was so tired but I can never sleep until I have my daily dose. * Loves
Going to gardens' for a round of massive gorging and bitching! Yippie!
* Sensitive. Sweet. Understanding. Too many things. * Yes, I'm foolish, so? Just my DD. I'll cherish.
Don't be jealous! Chahahahaha! =))))
* * *
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Sometimes I'm just scared. I guess I've no trust in myself. I will learn to trust myself more and definitely him.
People can bitch all they want. I dont care.
* Looking at life from a different perspective. * I will. I will. Cherish * Pray *
* * *
I'm in love baby ! ! !
Looks doesnt account for anything. It fades with time. Its the heart that counts. Don't many people think that way too?
* * *
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
But still, I'd choose to believe in him. Well, if all turns out bad, blame it on me. I made this decision.
I just love the silly look on his face. And the surprised look which tells me what I have done is worth it.
For now, I shall cherish the present and worry not about the future. Let tomorrow worry for itself. Am i being naive? So what if I am? I'm happy!
* Just my little muscle man * =D
P.S : Is this bod hot? Chahaha.
* * *
Monday, July 04, 2005
Does age matter that much? It used to matter alot to me. USED TO. Prefably I would like a guy who is my senior. Cos people say guys' thinking is not as matured as girls. Well, I beg to differ. Who cares about having a guy one year my junior? I don't. In fact I have gladly accepted and welcomed the fact. It depends on individual, really. Others can say whatever nasty things they want about me. I really don't bother. They can look at me in whatever way they want. This is my life-I lead it the way I want it to be.
Anyway, its too early to judge or say anything. All I know is that I want to cherish the present moments. And be smiling one day when I think back. To give myself a chance, not to care what others might say, I got to say I've become braver and learnt to stand up to my feelings. =)
Will you people be the nice ones to give me some form of encouragement?
* My little muscle man * Am happy. =D
* * *
Saturday, July 02, 2005
Is he like this nice to all his friends? I dont know him well enough to say anything!
* * *
Who's z girl:
its me.21.in a shit ass company.love my life and those in it.
Loves:
Sugar, spice and everything nice
Wants:
To lose weight.To be really happy.To remember God in all times.
To be more appreciative.To be genuine.To laugh like no-one's business!
Z girl:
Im basically a very simple human being.Love to laugh,love to play,hate to work,hate to study.
Love those who love me.Be nice to me and I'll reciprocate.
Im happy and smiley most of e time but I do have my shitty days too.
I only show my true colours to those Im close with.Even if on a bad day,I dont know u well,Im still all smiles.
But if u're my friend..then Im no smiles.WAHAHA.
Give me hell but I'll forgive u.I trust too easily in people.
Im obsessed with sweet stuff.
Make me laugh and u'll find it hard to stop me.I've a horrible laughter.So what?I love it!
Im barely surviving in a world of hypocrisy.Welcome to the club!
Walk down with me on memory lane:
- Went for dental appointment earlier on today. Ever...
- All girls are stupid and all guys are cheap.Why is...
- Increment? Big deal.
- Sicklet.
- Unforgivable sinner.
- Don't call me baby.
- The joke that wasn't exactly a joke.
- Time to move on?
- He's the one.
Trace Back:
- March 2005
- April 2005
- May 2005
- June 2005
- July 2005
- August 2005
- September 2005
- October 2005
- November 2005
- December 2005
- January 2006
- February 2006
- March 2006
- April 2006
- May 2006
- June 2006
- July 2006
- September 2006
- October 2006
- November 2006
- December 2006
- January 2007
- February 2007
- March 2007
- May 2007
- June 2007
- July 2007
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